我？

我？我有时候真的希望有个人在我低落的时候陪伴着我，不一定要特定的谁啦，只要有人跟我一起分享下也好，不过这很难啦。。。我比谁更清楚。。。只是现在真的很想跟人分享，说说一下我的感觉。。。好想哭哦。。。眼泪真的在眼睛里打转。。。

爸妈和二哥今天来了金宝，看到他们真的很开心，想下也很久没有看到家人了，顿时让我的房间有家的感觉了，虽然很小，但是很温暖。。。我们绕了金宝一圈，去学校看看，去Tesco买东西，很久没有这种感觉了。。。妈妈还帮我打扫房间，真的很感动。。。他们离开的时候，舍不得的感觉说不出口。。。眼泪又忍不住流出来了，没有人懂我的感受吧。。。T_T 好久没有哭了，原来是这种感觉，不喜欢~

不过再多一个月，我就可以回家看到他们了。。。期待那时候~

深夜人静，别人睡觉我还在为数学考试猛做练习。。。我累了。。。厌倦考试了。。。我要休息！！！

还好有音乐陪着我，周杰伦，曹格。。。都很好听。。。

大学千万不要一个人去啊。。。很可怜的。。。

Just as Vui Kit said, stressed ar...i gotta have sometime to relax ar...haiz...

I'M GOING CRAZY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jay Chou 周杰伦跨时代演唱会~

I wanna go to this concert so badly !!!!!!!

It will be damn cool !!! xD

Fell in love with this song lately !!

Aiyo Aiyo, bu cuo oh~~xD

Busy lor~~~

I killed a rat !!!! We dissected a rat at Biology Practical~

(photos will be uploaded once i get it)

Haiz...Its weekend, but it doesnt feel like a weekend to me...

I have to study maths and organic chemistry for monday and tuesday test... but after the test, i'm sure gonna have crazy fun...xDD hehe~~

so...my mom and dad is coming to Kampar tomoro wif my brother...I hope everything will be going well for them...and for me too of cos...

Now share some photos that my girl liked sooo sooo much~~

Ignore my hair...haha~she looks so white~~~~i'm jealous lor ~

Great photo !! xD Steamboat with tz5~~had a great nite~~=)

Games Games Games, test is coming but still games !!! xD

Oh my~~~ i havent been playing games in a long time...lol~ now suddenly all these games come out, and i had to get it... its too good to be true...i'll share 4 of the greatest games lately out of 10 other games i just got...

No.1 - The greatest first-person shooter video game ever made, Call of Duty Black Ops~

It was the fastest selling games in the record !! Zombie back on the play...xD

No.2 - My favourite basketball game !! NBA 2K11, the best basketball game ever made...

this is the first game i downloaded since sem.2. I fell in love with this game...Its got Michael Jordan...

You guys gotta try the Jordan Challenge and the My Player...its really cool !!

No.3 - Need for Speed Hot Pursuit 2010...
Finally the feeling of speed came back to me, remember back then i was a big fan of NFS too...

Finally a game that fulfill my speed desire...(nfs game sucks since prostreet...haiz...)

And this one got Lamborghini Reventon as a cop car... GENG !!! xD

No.4 - Starcraft II, i know this game is not so new, but i just got it recently...quite ok de lar...

Got it from ST anyway...

Better weekend ??

Had a really tiring friday... >.<


TVK also tired til sleep in the middle of the air...lol !
My girl decided to stay back at Kampar this weekend...Yoohoo!!! so happy !!! xD

Finally a happier weekend in sem. 2. haha...

Fennie's sister come Kampar again, TVK's mother also coming tomoro...And my mom and dad and brother is coming next week...kinda looking forward to that, hope they bring $$ or present to me...xD


TQ Fennie and Siew, the egg tart delicious betul...


I found that i'm pretty good at acting cute ^^ xD

我爱你 ♥

我关心你多过我关心我自己。我爱你多过我爱我自己。我不在乎别人说我，可是我在乎别人怎么说你。每次不管是谁的错，我都说是我的错，因为我不想让你觉得自己不好或则不完美。总之，你在我心里是完美的。可能，这就是我的自私吧~

Sharing photos time~

Sem.1 finished, i went to ipoh wif XY~


And of course with these guys too~xD

Sem. 2 begins, Chinese Mooncake Festival...and a BIG THING happened after this...Changed my life forever after...


Soo Teng's Birthday, we played water...lol~all wet wet jor...

Biology practical, everyday look at the microscope...i'm not a biologist lar... >.<
A little bit fun at the chemistry lab, nowadays we keep doing chemical test...quite bored...

at ipoh parade~~

we took this before goh left...

Height arranged...xD

UTAR = Unlimited Test, Assignments and Reports~ or so called Universiti Tak Ada Rehat...

Fennie's Birthday~ Weee~

I drove to Ipoh for this, worth so much~~xD

Just the way you are, my love~

Soo Teng's Birthday~~

A great photo~Taken outside physics lab, been doing all about electrics in this semester...bored...

I know i'm cute, same goes to Fennie~xD

Went to gym with the gang! xD

Chinese Cultural Night~got a famous singer, 品冠 come to UTAR and sing~~xD

Took this on Jeffrey's Birthday~~

Act cute xia lar...dun blame my childishness~

The hair fall down a bit jor...Argh~~

Delicious ice-cream~~xD

Most of the TZ5~

Fooled~xD

Dont rape me !!!



Saw a black ferrari at kampung area...lol~



My girl, TVK and i~


Me and all the Sabahans~


XY me and Jeff~

Big lollipop gang wor...like this~~xD

I havent got to share a lot of things lately, just keep writing about how emo i am, so 肤浅, kns punya...

But tat emo me wont appear here again for some time...

This weekend, i thought i wasnt gonna be alone finally, but haha, alone also lar, no big deal...

Quite hard to find a fren chat right now ar...quite sad about that...no big deal also lar...

Dun wan emo liao lar...feel so lame and stupid...

Hope you enjoyed the photos~~Been too lazy before, so din share the photos here, haha, paiseh lar...There are more, but i'm reli lazy ler...haha~

Well, i celebrated many people's birthday here at Kampar, including the one and only, my lovely wify, Xin Yi~~Chee Xuan, Fennie, Jeffrey, and Soo Teng...Mine is soon-to-be...i hope i wont get played too much like them...lol~haha~xD
More photos can be seen at my Facebook lar...at my tagged photos there...

Hope you all have a nice day and dont lose yourself in all these busy days, and this lost city...lol~
talk cock betul...

Anyway, just add oil in everything...xD

Friends...

Close friends? Distant friends? True friends? Real friends?

Today i got the chance to call my long time no see + lost contact friends. Because most of the times, all friends are very busy with their studies and their things. Which made us lost contact. I called Gene Ng, Lawrence Kiing, Zi Wei, Ah Yew, Ah Hong, Kelly Chew, Emily, Yoyo, Ting Ding, and Sin Ling...

Among all of them, the 2 longest chat is with Gene and Lawrence. I shared a lot of things with them, and i finally came open up myself to tell the truth. It was quite relieving when i let it out. The others either too busy or do not know my new number or do not want to pick up my phone, i dont know...

Finally got the chance to chat with them 2, i had quite a nice chat with them, tell my hearts out...feels kinda good...but the others, hmmm......just suan ler bah......

I really hate myself of being so emotional, i thought i've changed since i came to Kampar, i should be a very optimistic person, just like Gene. She went to maktab in Kelantan alone...and she keep saying, its ok lar, just get use to it then ok ler...I am so jealous how she can handle her emotion like that...i wish i could be as strong as her...

I was on the way of becoming a person who can accept things as it is when i came here...But it came to me after WHAT happened, i still cant accept the reality and i turned into some kind of freak, and fking emotional person.
i guess no one can understand me anymore.

THIS IS NOT WHO I AM.

I wasnt like this. I want myself back. ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH~

Busy Busy Busy~

I kept my time occupied with presentation preparation and reports for the most of today...
so that i wont feel so emo...haha~
Gambateh to all of you ar~
12.40 ler...I still haven take my shower...lol, geng lar...

Happy or Sad ?

This blog used to be the place where i share all my happy things...
Not really sure since when it starts to become a place for me to share all my sad things and emo things...
Am i affected ? i guess maybe i am...Am i trying to get some attention ? I dont know...
Or maybe i just want to let the things in my heart out ? Yeah i think so...
i couldnt share some things in my mind, not to anyone at all, i used to share with friends, i still do, but not everything anymore, because i try to hide myself deeper and deeper, i'm just afraid in the end, even i cant find myself too...
My friend Tina Ting, was kinda busy lately, she used to be my listener and my advisor, and i be hers too, but now with all the busy assignments going on, there's no chance to share anything with her too...
As for my friends in Kampar, not that i dont want to share or feeling not close with you all, i feel close with you all, in fact, you all are my best friends here, but i just feel that i should not let my feelings get to you all, just let me bear with the emo, i cant affect their mood and their emotion.
So this place has officially became my diary, for the sad things, hopefully some happy things too, if i wasnt too lazy to write about it...
Totally lost myself already, i'm a changed person after "THAT".

悲观的我~

才发现我的情绪是有时间性的，就是我一个人的时候，超不喜欢的。。。果然不出我所料，还是我自己假装快乐，算了吧，反正就了，我对我的EMONESS就习惯了。。。身为射手座的我，最厉害伪装快乐。。。哈哈~

想念以前的我。。。快乐的我。。。。。。

快乐的一天总有悲伤的时候。。。快乐给你，悲伤我拿。。。^^

乐观的我~

最初的我，是多么的简单，少烦恼，少忧愁，少顾虑。。。现在的我，真的已经变了吗？
想说我以前并不是这么悲观又EMO的人，只是发生过的一些事实，到现在还是无法改变。。。
难道乐观的我，真的已经不见了吗？

我试着把自己隐藏，但是我不想别人认为我是一个悲观的人，所以我选择了朋友。。。
只要看到别人的开心，可能我就开心了。。。小小简单的快乐就足够了。。。

为什么人生就这么多道理，哲学，那么多烦恼，那么多难过的事，我敢说，我已经经历了很多事情，学到了很多东西。。。已经不再去犯同样的错误了，但是，总是有新的错误。。。

有时候真的很需要一些安慰，可是到最后都是我自己安慰自己，告诉自己没什么啦，日子还不是这样过。。。多么希望有人可以安慰我，能够让我觉得人生并没有那么悲惨，那么痛苦，尤其是“她”，竟然已经是我生命中不可少的人，但是我有时还是觉得我是一个人在承受我自己的痛苦，悲伤。。。

我很常说:“没有啦，没有什么啦，OK的。。。” “很好啊，有什么不好”
试着掩饰我心中的感觉。。。有时真的觉得，我的心已经围了一道墙，连我自己都感觉不到我的心了。。。

读了这一编，不要觉得奇怪，也不要问我为什么。。。可能我从这么久以来，都没有说我的心事了，已经讲不出我心里的话了，只好写在这里。。。
不是我想要说我有多么悲惨，只是觉得这里是我唯一可以发泄的地方了。。。

1.30am， 是该睡觉了。。。拜拜~