Pain...

Those words you said to me, its sharper than knives, harder than steel...

Its worse than death...

Start all over again...

Sometimes, its not a bad thing to start over, on a new page~

I wish everything would be better, i really do.

And i wish everything will be better for her.

Its devastating for me. But i'll get through.

Because only i know how much pain i've been through and how pain are those words to me.

It makes me so small, and i feel so helpless.

I don't ever want to have this kind of feeling again. Not ever.

Let the time replenish us.

My heart is still with you.

Always and forever.

Back in Kampar~

Finally, after rushing for the whole night, WE arrived at Kampar, from car to aeroplane, from aeroplane to bus, from bus to ktm, from ktm to car again to my house in Kampar~

So tiring, so exhausting, feeling sad and emo leaving my hometown, but at the same time, i'm feeling very happy and excited because i'm another step closer to see my Lou Po Zai and my frens in Kampar...

So the first person i saw in westlake is Jeffrey Chin, he was riding his bicycle outside to buy burger...lol~then after put down our burden, we went to fill out water then went to meet with jeffrey and vui kit~

It feels kinda weird, going back to school, and everything...after replenish myself at Sibu, i look everything with different kind of views, after what Hong told, i think i've changed, bit by bit...

Thanks vui kit for his souvenir he bought in Penang....haha~and dude, dont be so emo, u still have us~~ xDD

UTAR, i'm back for you, Dont ruin me and my frens especially HER in this Sem. 2, have mercy please~~~ >.<

Bye Sibu, Hi Kampar

Just like the title said. I'm leaving Sibu and going to Kampar.

Feelings ?

Emo. Dun wanna leave. Sucks cos i'm going alone.

I'll see my frens there bah~Shud be quite happy...

Good news Bad news ??

hmmmm...... there are good news and bad news for me tonight.......

but i'm not reli sure wat i feel right now...my roommate, Goh just decided not to study anymore because he gets a bad result, there goes my hometown's last hope...lol~

and for my girl, she failed some subject too, i wonder what is her decision next, but whatever decision she made, it will affect a lot of things between us and herself too...but i will respect whatever decision she make too...afterall, she is the person that i care most and love the most...:-)

as for myself, i think i'm gonna be quite lonely, cos all the times i used to chat along with Goh, the fun and crazy times we had, my Sibu's fren, i'm gonna be so alone >_<

I had a pretty good night out with my friends, went for "sight-seeing", car driving, eat burger, eat kampua with Yew, Hong and Zhuang...

I'm leaving tomoro (alone) to KL and alone again ride KTM to Kampar... =.= sien lor........i hate being alone~it freaking sucks~~~

Bye for now~ Eeeeeeeeeeemo~

又来到这里写了~

好久没有用华语来写我的部落格了，今天来尝试用华语来写下吧。。。

最近我在干什么？

跟Ah Hong，Ah Yew，Goh 出来咯，喝茶，祷告，剪头发，还蛮不错的，我想念这种和朋友在一起的感觉，不错~ 可是觉得时间好像过得很快，随便睡一下，又过了一天~

有点矛盾的感觉，想要见我的老婆仔，又想要留在这里过轻松的生活，无忧无虑，自由自在。。。

为什么一定要读书叻？哈哈。。。无聊的问题。。。

你说我好像怪怪的，我也觉得没有你在身边，我老是怪怪的，不懂干吗咯，还是我太依赖你了？
不知道。。。（多的是，你不知道的事）。。。无聊啦，哈哈~

又是一个没有主题的post，不知道要写些什么。。。

阿鸿最近给了我一些感触，让我深深地感觉到他的改变，有点蛮羡慕他的，我也正在改变自己。。。我了解到自己的缺点，希望可以改掉我的坏习惯和缺点。。。

还有两天就要回西马了，是依依不舍吗？自由的美好？舒服床的诱惑？不想离开这里。。。

可是又很想你。。。。。。没有人知道我有多想你，已经到一种说不出来的程度了。。。







思念是一种病，没有错~



当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现 已经 失去 最重要的东西
恍然大悟 早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信 错的是自己
他们说这就是人生 试着体会
试着忍住眼泪 还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里 尤其在夜里
还是会想起 难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营 忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
借口总是拉远了距离 不知不觉 无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己 到底做了甚么蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念 过去的一切
那些人事物 会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离 变成回忆
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Oh 思念是一种病
Oh 思念是一种病
一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那么美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事 停下了脚步
就怕你不说 就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续 一切都来得及
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Oh 思念是一种病
Oh 思念是一种病
一种病
谢谢

L.O.V.E as simple as A.B.C

haha, 灵感~啊~灵感来了，啊，来了，来了~

xDD

i guess most of you know where did those chinese words come from if u saw tat video, lol~ ooops, this post is about LOVE~~

Finally i write something meaningful ?? haha, dun think so~

well, after such a long time no talk cock, i think now is a good chance for me to write it here ler, but it aint talk cock...its real~~

Love is simple. not as complicated as we think it is. Love, no matter what language it speaks, how we write it, anyway we draw it, it is still the same LOVE as we know it.





i just came to understand this for the first time on 23/7/2010, which is the day we got together...

i was falling in love so deeply that time, that i couldn't let myself out, so i let myself in~ it was her, yes it is, the one and only her, her name is XY. She is special, she is cute, she is irreplaceable, she is my TRUE LOVE, as from the word, LOVE, that i understand, it means u care for someone in which u do not ask for anything in return, and whenever she is happy, then u are happy...yes , i feel that way, everytime i get near her, or further away from her.

She's just too special, we thought a lot of " What if " and listened to the song " What if ", LOL !!! but whatever, we think we made the right choice, and always will be~

Lou po zai ar, i hope what i write wasnt too deep for u ar... just ask me if u dun understand...hahaha~xD

One more week til 20/7/2010, which is the day we start our Semester 2 in UTAR, and also the day i meet with my lou po zai after semester break... looking forward to that, but for now, ciao~~

post some photos u people wanted to see, just in case u did not check out my facebook~lol~









And i wanted my XY to know that, i remember all the special things we did, all the Troublems we've been through, memories we wanted to keep, the moments that we wanna catch, the movies that we wanna watch, the songs that we wanna hear, the time that we wanted to spend together, the everything that we shared~~ ^.^

Stressed~~

Final exams now~freaking stressed and totally out of sleeping, eating, and playing mood... =.=

I want the exam to end ASAP !!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<