Graduation. Change in life.

Apparently, I just had my graduation convocation in the Mid of March, and also, apparently, I never blogged in 14 months, it was all due to my laziness and my different priorities throughout the month.

So, I've started working as soon as I finished my intern and stayed at the same company that offered me to be intern, and move on to be a permanent-yet-to-be confirmed staff in Hitachi eBworx right after I finished my intern. Of course, I felt everything is going well, the pay and benefit is good, my team is nice to me, we're close, and I can learn a lot from my Project Manager. It sure does seems like I have a good prospect in this company, and I am looking forward to do my best and shine.

I knew as we grow up, we should have a goal and an objective in life, milestones to achieve, challenges to get through, abilities to prove, and a life to enjoy. Truth to say, there is not much emotional obstacles throughout the way, I just have to concentrate in my own life, build up my good career profile, a good character in the office, and know as many people as I can, because getting to know new people are the best opportunity you may get in a working environment.

I learned to persevere through tough times in UTAR and outside too. And I know how important it is to stay tough and fight through, because if you can't get through these small little problems, what can you do in a society full of competitors who's trying to bring you down?

Also one thing I have realized is that friends are very important, it is important to keep your close friends close, and as for those who does not appreciate my effort to continue being good friends, I'm not sad at all, not even affected by a little bit, I'm too busy to care for your shit. If you want, you can live your life and ignore me the whole time. But know this, it's not my loss to lose u as a friend, I got nothing to lose, I got plenty of friends who will truly care and support me.

In fact, there are two things that I have to concentrate on in my life now. My relationship with her and my career. We should not have the habit of staying in our comfort zone, it will only make you weak. So I should be exploring everything now and absorb as many new knowledge as fast as I can for my personal growth. I do intend to be successful in my life, that's why I have to be diligent and always look for other opportunity to enhance my abilities and skills.

Reality and life

Sometimes, the reality is so disappointing, that it makes you want to give up everything. But if you strive through it, you will find out that this is merely a small stone standing in your way, and all you have to do is to kick it away.

Staying positive in our lives is one of the most important things ever. Being negative will not take you anywhere. This is something that i learned over the past years. I had been in bad condition, really down, really upset, completely devastated, but yet i let it all pass by me. I knew i had to let it go, although the pain has gotten to me, and the scars stay, but I'm still alive. That's the point. 

Though it may be harder to convince one to be positive because what you say might not have a big influence on them, but it's worth a try. 

Thought of the day: I had never understood why people would like reading books so much. A book is so thick and so full of words sometimes, that it makes me sleepy. But today i understand, when the book is really well-written, those words can really catch you in the moment and keep u in the book, that's the power of words, some power that i wish i also have. 

I've been thinking of writing a letter to myself when i'm 40 years old. Set a goal, see whether i can achieve it. Write my thinking, see whether i have changed. A reminder, as to what kind of person i should be and what i should not.

At the point of you criticizing someone actually diminishes your own value in others' perception.

I'm back..

Writing, a power given to you at your own fingertips.
A great way to express yourself where you can just let it all out disregard all the comments and opinions people give you.

 I guess the reason i'm back on writing this blog is because I've accumulated a hell lot of things inside that i just wanted to release. I always had a lot in my mind, ideas, feelings, opinions, caring, questions. I wonder when is the day that i question what's on others mind, there are so many things that are mind-boggling for me, but figuring out what they are thinking is just too much of work and it is really really exhausting.

Maybe one day i'll just stop figuring it out and stop caring and live with myself. Letting a person go is hard but letting a person in is even harder. There is not one day that i wouldn't stop questioning about why do i make my own life so hard, isn't it just better to not think of it and fuck everything else?

 2013 is long long year. A year full of first times, surprises, sadness, happiness, everything. What's important is what i've learned throughout the year, i learn to be contented, be happy with everything around me, appreciate everyone around me, although everything and some things may turn against me, but fuck 'em, i can't make everyone happy, if you're not happy, just go fuck yourself. I don't have the responsibility to care about your feelings and how you think about me, i'm gonna be me and that's how it's going to be.

 For 2014, I will not expect anything, I just have to be brave to face challenges and have no fear, i think that's going to be my motto of the year. I guess that's it for now. To myself, be brave!

Expectations, anyone?

It's been 3 months since i last blogged... There's a hell lot of things happened in between this 3 months... I learned that as a human being, we have our expectations, sometimes, we get what we want, what we expect,  but for most of the times, expectation only leads to disappointment...

I also found out that some things that i do did not get support from my friends, i was quite sad about that... Guess i am alone after all... Gonna be a busy week ahead, I should tell myself, everything is ok... no more expectations....

忍~

我真的不知道我还可以忍多久。

算了，什么都不说，什么都不管，应该是最好了。

一个人，没有什么大不了。

Weekend again..

Here comes the worst part of the week..

Time to talk less and think more..

Time to start doing revision for finals..

Time to learn to be more independent again..

心里的事~

其实我真的有很多很多话想要说，有很多很多的领悟，可是我从未说出口，可能永远都说不出口了吧。。。

放在心里是最好的了，不需要听别人对自己的批评，自己知道自己明白就好。。。

想说我真的可以开心的过每一天，可是我做到了吗？

无所谓，Good days, Bad days, its just another day. A day is gonna end, and then a new day is going to start. =)

Reincarnation of B.R.L =)

Finally, after 6 months, i came back to update my blog.

Lots and lots of things happened in this 6 months.

A lot of them were not good things for me. But i managed to get through it.

I realize this is the life process that we have to go through.

In the process of growing up, there must be a lot of obstacles in between. The obstacles bring you down, but you must stand back up and face it bravely.

I've made too many mistakes, some were forgiven by others, some even i cannot forgive myself.

What happened has happened, i've regretted and changed and i will not repeat the same mistake ever.

I've learned that we can't keep looking back at our past, its just gonna stop u down from moving forward, so i look forward, hoping that there's hope in the future.

One of the happiest things that happened in my life is that i get to know my best friends in Zoo Family, without them, i would not be me today =)

ZOO FAMILY ROCKS!!!!!

Anyway, live life happily and love everyone it =) That's the only thing that i'm gonna do from now on. =)

PS: The person who stole this shirt of mine, i still hate u from ground up and will curse u non-stop whenever i rmb my stolen shirt, so i hereby, sincerely hope that u'll suffer for the rest of ur life =)

Long lost confidence...

Ok...can i say that i have lost trust in love? or just that i don't have the confidence to fall in love anymore?

I don't think every story has a happy ending...but i certainly hope it wasn't a sad one too...

Unfortunately, i've been forcing myself not to get into any story for the time being...

And i do miss you......more than you can imagine...i hope this isn't real, but its as real as it gets...

So, reality sucks~~

Should i grieve or should i feel fortunate?? Maybe in time, i will understand this even better...

But for your info, i'm not emo-ing...i just hate that i have to live through this part of life...

It's amazing how THE ALMIGHTY plans things...I'm definitely impressed~~

Back from the pack.

Oh well........It's been a month since i've last updated my blog... I have a confession to make. Yes, i was lazy and yes, i got a lot of things i wanted to express but i don't feel like writing...

But finally i convinced myself to write this...and yes...i'm going to talk about my holiday~

So i stayed at Klang for 3 days...Enjoyed my free life and finished 潜行狙击~ Downloaded 风行 and found my favourite english dramas there (say bye bye to boring holidays~~ xD)

And then i came back to Sibu, my hometown, one of the closest place i can related to HEAVEN in describe.(maybe home is the better way to describe it). Yes! HOME, as we know it, the best place that we could stay.

Not to say that everytime i'm leaving Kampar, there's a feeling of unwilling to go back, but i'm happy to go back, and then when i got back, there is a feeling of 'i miss my friends in Kampar', and then right now, i'm very satisfied with my holidays. Everyday, i just hang around my laptop, watching dramas, movies, hang out with friends, go out with my family, spend time with them...
What else could be more happy than this, right?

It's so damn important that we appreciate and love our friends and family, cos without them, i can't even find a reason to stay alive anymore. Ok, maybe its a little bit exaggerated but its true.

There are times, where your past is haunting you, you convince yourself you have moved on since then, but are you?