Bernard.Random.Life ♥

Long lost confidence...

2011-09-24T00:42:00.002+08:00

Ok...can i say that i have lost trust in love? or just that i don't have the confidence to fall in love anymore?

I don't think every story has a happy ending...but i certainly hope it wasn't a sad one too...

Unfortunately, i've been forcing myself not to get into any story for the time being...

And i do miss you......more than you can imagine...i hope this isn't real, but its as real as it gets...

So, reality sucks~~

Should i grieve or should i feel fortunate?? Maybe in time, i will understand this even better...

But for your info, i'm not emo-ing...i just hate that i have to live through this part of life...

It's amazing how THE ALMIGHTY plans things...I'm definitely impressed~~

Back from the pack.

2011-09-21T23:47:00.002+08:00

Oh well........It's been a month since i've last updated my blog... I have a confession to make. Yes, i was lazy and yes, i got a lot of things i wanted to express but i don't feel like writing...

But finally i convinced myself to write this...and yes...i'm going to talk about my holiday~

So i stayed at Klang for 3 days...Enjoyed my free life and finished 潜行狙击~ Downloaded 风行 and found my favourite english dramas there (say bye bye to boring holidays~~ xD)

And then i came back to Sibu, my hometown, one of the closest place i can related to HEAVEN in describe.(maybe home is the better way to describe it). Yes! HOME, as we know it, the best place that we could stay.

Not to say that everytime i'm leaving Kampar, there's a feeling of unwilling to go back, but i'm happy to go back, and then when i got back, there is a feeling of 'i miss my friends in Kampar', and then right now, i'm very satisfied with my holidays. Everyday, i just hang around my laptop, watching dramas, movies, hang out with friends, go out with my family, spend time with them...
What else could be more happy than this, right?

It's so damn important that we appreciate and love our friends and family, cos without them, i can't even find a reason to stay alive anymore. Ok, maybe its a little bit exaggerated but its true.

There are times, where your past is haunting you, you convince yourself you have moved on since then, but are you?

Home~ I miss it =(

2011-08-29T02:09:00.003+08:00

Its actually been quite a while since i missed my home so much, just on the other day, my mom and dad called me and we talked for quite long, around 30 mins, i almost cried out in the middle of the conversation, but i stopped myself from doing so. Mom and Dad really cares a lot about me, and sometimes i still feel that i don't get enough, i am so not contented.

Anyway, through this, i realized what i had was more than enough, the most important is the love of our family, the objects or wealth that we wanted is actually not that important. I should be thankful of what i have right now. For example like my family's and friend's love and caring. Their love and caring is much much more important and appreciated rather than having a new laptop or a new smartphone, or anything else.

I love my mom and dad, brothers and sister.

I love all my friends. You are the one that brightened my life.

Truly appreciate and will never forget all of you.

Actually there are a looooooot more photo to put, but i don't have time to upload it all >.< Sorry~~

Get ready to rock!

2011-08-26T12:09:00.001+08:00

Getting gear up for finals...Everyone is working hard, no space for failure allowed...

I feel so ham fok =)

Simple update =)

2011-08-20T12:56:00.003+08:00

Do anyone of you realize the Favicon(the small icon at the tab beside my blog's name) has changed into a small Demon? xD

Well, luckily blogspot has put this icon into one of the editable things at the 'Design' Its on the upper left of the Navbar, go check it out =)

Oh, if you saw a question sentence, there is answer right below it, try to do this (DRAG YOUR MOUSE FROM HERE UNTIL THE END OF THIS BRACKET FIND WORDS THAT ARE IN WHITE COLOUR) xD

Those hidden white words at all the post before this, find it yourself bah =)

Photo of the day:

Start your day with a smile =D

潘玮柏来了UTAR~

2011-08-19T09:16:00.009+08:00

要请到潘玮柏来到UTAR真的不是一件容易的事啊~ 身为 Sales Team 的我们博命了两个星期多~ 卖了四百多张专辑~ 创造了奇迹~哈哈哈~ 还好到最后也是成功请到了潘玮柏来~ 真的很开心咯~ =)

SS in the car =D

I'm the sales crew~

Rui Ling, Huey Min, Kai Sun, Bobo~

The assistant sales manager and the sales manager~

Talk cock Benson and Talk pork waiting in the line to get his signature~

Met Fennie and Siew at the line too~

Wendy~

Slack for a while after they all entered the Heritage Hall~ =)

With the cute and beautiful Abbie~ =)

At last, we managed to take group photo together with Wilber Pan 潘玮柏

He is leaving >.<

很不错的一次经验，很开心又很累的一天，接下来我要做什么呢？

To my beloved roommate:

You will never be alone. It's just her being selfish and uncaring towards u. She will know it someday, that you are the truly one for her. =D u dun have to be emo~ because Bromance is in the air~

PS1: I really hate those person that make simple things complicated, there's only three letters to them , o and 0 and o

Crawl~

2011-08-11T18:53:00.001+08:00

Herng, of course, i'll crawl back into it =)

eneME(comes from Enemy)

2011-08-09T22:41:00.004+08:00

eneME, the biggest enemy of mine is eneME, which is ME myself =)

I found out this after i heard what you said.

Now that i know, i'll work on that particular weakness from now on, thank you XY Chromosome =)

Simplicity of life =)
Actually life can be simple too~ Teeeheee~

Paparazzi Prom Night~

2011-08-08T00:03:00.005+08:00

Okay, at the last minute, i finally decided to attend the Paparazzi Prom Night. Did not regret that i went to it actually, quite enjoyable and memorable night~ Let the photos talk~ =)

Before the entry to Heritage Hall~

Before the performances~
SS at the toilet xD
Ready for the Prom Night.

Bobo, Huey Min, Janet performed Shock by BEAST~

A hot dance by some hot dancers~~

We couldn't recognize u lar, Fennie...lol~

Ex-housemate leng lui, Hayley =)

With Jack Soon and his gang =)

The Handsome Sayang~ =)

Act cool? =.=

Gotta love the sunlight =D

With cutie Flora~

With the beautiful Bobo~

Selecting Prom Queen and King~

There goes our Prom King and Queen~

The smart and handsome Prom King, Ju Xian~

And the gorgeous Prom Queen Selene =)

With pretty Huey Min~

I don't know what is this =.=

Oh, and the beautiful Kai Sun too =)

Another Chao outside!!

Act cool again =.=

Chose this as my profile pic =)

[Something hidden below]

Did i really forget? Did i? Did u?
How u did it so easily??
Teach me T.T
I'm still waiting for that someone though =)

Fear?

2011-08-07T02:10:00.006+08:00

I'm actually quite afraid that i did not walk out of the dark clouds at all...

Maybe i'm not even dare to take the next step out of it...

Haiz....... ='(

Any expectations, Mr.Bernard ?

Someone please help me walk out of this dark cloud. I really need your help =(

Saturday's Ipoh Trip!

2011-07-31T14:51:00.005+08:00

Saturday!!!! The day that we've been waiting for~~ Our main objective is to buy present for Bao Kang and Wen Xuan (Xin Yi's aunt's son and daughter) and to attend their party...

But first, we achieved our secondary objective before the main one...
1. Played bowling~

2. Watched Transformers 3 finally!!!! Oh damn!!! the movie is freaking amazing...i still cant imagine how anyone could sleep while watching it =.=

The Sentinel Prime

Optimus Prime is a great fighter and leader!!

The freaking hot main actress, Rosie-Huntington-Whiteley

Bought Hot Wheels for Bao Kang =D

During the party~

Leng lui~~

梅酒~ Damn nice lar this one!! xD

Beer and Whisky~

Chao Outside MDFK!!!

The great family photo favored by everyone!! Big family!! and Happy =)

Bored?

2011-07-28T14:04:00.002+08:00

What else should i do other than...

1. Study?

2. Facebook?

3. NBA 2K11?

4. Poker?

5. Blogging?

6. What else?

Something that i like to say~

2011-07-26T10:08:00.005+08:00

For quite some time, i have been putting on the "smile" mask. Is it hiding your feelings a good thing to do? I don't know, seriously. But it doesn't harm anyone until now, so i guess its the right thing to do.

Ok, here comes the truth...

Truth is, deep inside of my heart, it has been a long long time since i am truly happy...
How to say?

I can feel that there is a weight or burden stuck within my heart and i could never move it or let it out. What could really be the reason?

I think the close friends around me should know or might know.

They say time is the best healer. It can heal everything, it's just a matter of time. Well, yes, time do heal our wounds, REAL wounds...So how about the wounds inside?

So far, there is nothing i can do to cover that hole inside my heart, but i can't blame anyone, this is nobody's fault, it's just part of our life and it's all part of growing up and mature.

What do i hope?

I hope, one day, when another person finally walked into my heart, would heal my wounds, and maybe stay in there forever. I don't ask for too much. Just don't hurt me.

It's kinda sad...=(

But luckily there's this guy, My handsome roommate, Tay Vui Kit

Now i'm ok =)

Clean the dust of my blog =)

2011-07-06T01:53:00.004+08:00

Its been a while since i have updated my blog... So i'm gonna write something anyway, although i know there is not much people reading this, but i'll just consider this as a place for me to share things to...

What i did lately?

1. Joined as helper in Health Awareness Campaign, and helped in the "I Care, Do You?" Carnival, it was a carnival held for HAC (Health Awareness Campaign) by the First Aid Society, i had lots of fun and knew a lot of friends through this campaign, it surely did help me forget about something.

2. As one the Sagittarius, i am naturally a cheerful person, so they say i can forget things easily, this time, YES it is.. i did put down and forget...We are still best friends, no weird feelings and no vengeance at all, definitely no hatred...

3. I learn to grow up and be mature, instead of whining about small little problems in our life...Learn to get over the past, learn to be tough...This is what we do everyday, grow up and grow mature...We're not small little kids now, but we're not totally adult yet, we're still on our way on being an adult...

Yes life is tough, but u can't stop there also, u have to move on...

So this is what i'm gonna tell myself, Bernard Lau, GROW UP and BE MATURE!! at least try ur best =)

2am

Bernard Lau signing out.
x.o.x.o

So u gotta slip it on!! =D

Vui Kit, Jeanie and Jeannie~

Eco-bag seller

Thank you Jessi for coming to support =)

Love? Life?

2011-06-28T19:10:00.004+08:00

To: God

Life just got different today. It's unusual and i have to get used to it. There is nothing much to share or to tell, as no one really knows and cared.

I know i shouldn't grieve or abhor, but what else can i do?

I don't really know what to do, there is no instructions manuals to this lesson. But i've learned, and i will remember it forever.

As time passes, i hope i will be fine, i won't let anyone look down on me.

One thing that i'm very sure of, i am really not going to be the same to you and to myself anymore.

Let the time heal my wound and wash away the pain.

I want to be something but it is far far away from me now.

From: Your beloved son

Really?

2011-06-04T11:31:00.001+08:00

Just very angry and disappointed. Nothing special. Just cant sleep for the whole night. Nothing worse. I tried damn hard to release the anger... FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love~

2011-05-31T23:57:00.002+08:00

Love is ..................

1. An unsolved puzzle...

2. Mysterious.....

3. What makes people 又爱又恨 ( Eh i dunno the english for this )...LOL~~~

4. the only thing that makes people feel happy and the happiness can make u feel sweet all day long...

5. confusing...

6. complicated...

7. a lot of I Don't Knows...............

What do you think about love?? Comment at the chatbox beside.......=) Thx for ur support...

彩虹 Rainbow

2011-05-29T15:51:00.002+08:00

突然想起彩虹，就来写一个故事吧。。。

人生有起有落，有喜有悲，有好有坏，其实我们面对人生应该要有一种乐观的态度，不管你是什么星座的啦，这个态度就注定你的人生了。。。

每个人都会遇到挫折，只是看你遇到挫折的时候能够处理它吗，能够接受它吗。。。当你遇到挫折的时候，就好像在路上走着走着，突然下起大雨了（有雨伞都不能回的那种雨，哈哈), 回不到家了，你只能找地方躲雨，等雨停。。。

不要忘记雨后会有美丽的，七彩光谱的彩虹，画在天上，让人欣赏。。。只要看到这一道彩虹，总能让人觉得人生是充满希望的。

所以，每当我们遇到难关的时候，不妨用另外一个角度去想，再慢慢调式自己的心情，然后学着去接受它，这样才对得起自己，对得起所有人。。。

到最后，我希望那些对自己失望的人，遇到难题的人，上帝不可能只安排给你痛苦与伤心，所以肯定会有欢喜与快乐的。。。不要沮丧，人生才刚开始呢。。。=)

I miss you =)

2011-05-27T00:10:00.005+08:00

I miss your appearance, that closes our distance by zero...

I miss your face, it's the prettiest face i've ever seen...

I miss your eyes, that look me in my eyes, and i know what you are going to say...

I miss your mouth, all the sweet things that you have told me...

I miss your lips, that you used to kiss me...

I miss your ears, that i always say the sweet things to you =)

I miss your smile, that melts my heart all the time...

I miss your voice, that makes me feel peaceful all day long...

I miss your laugh, which brightens my day...

I miss your jokes, that makes me happy the whole day...

I miss your hands, that i like to hold...

I miss your fingers, that always pinch me or point at me...

I miss your nails, that you polished and done beautifully just to let me see...

I miss your legs, that you always step on me...

I miss YOU =) Miss your everything...

Do u miss me? o.O

Am i really happy?

2011-05-25T00:51:00.002+08:00

Phew~~~~ Just reached KL and my bro came LCCT to fetch and we went for supper at Asia Cafe near the Taylors... and then we head back to his wife's home... This place is cozy and comfortable...

But i suddenly felt moody...=.= i start to think, am i really a happy person?? I think i just miss my friends too much, lol~ all those in Sibu, in KL, in Kuching, in Kampar, in Ipoh, lol~ all over the world lar...

Actually i got a lot of things in my mind, and i wanna share it out, i wanted to say it out...but i think here is not a good place to share it out and there's no one for me to share with also... Maybe bcos they were busy or smth...Whatever~ The Show Goes On(i am listening to this song sang by Lupe Fiasco, xD) Anyway~~ =) Face ur life, Bird, no matter its depressing or miserable or exciting or interesting or whatever !!!! Cheer the F up~

Ok, i'm just envy about something...lol~ There.... i said it.... Haha~

Holidays~ Movies~ Games~ Hangouts~

2011-05-22T21:43:00.008+08:00

Tron: Legacy~ A very futuristic movie, i can see how much computer took place in this movie, without computer, this movie can't be done this way, the designer and writer is really smart though if they can really write this kind of program...lol~~

8 out of 10 !!

Just watched this....it was damn great, its the kind of war movies that i like to watch, just like "Black Hawk Down" "Saving Private Ryan" "Band of brothers" and other war movies that i've watched...i liked it~

7 out of 10 !!

What is holidays? Holidays are the days that you enjoy without doing your work or without studying... Its the best part of our lives where somethings amazing can happen or NOT? lol~

Yeah well, lets cut to the chase, Oh, i've been watching movies lately, lots of them, now its time to share =)

The first movie i watched when i come back to Sibu - Fast Five

Its the best movie i've watched this year, perfectly matched my anticipation and taste, definitely worth the money =) 10 out of 10!!

Oh Harry Potter~ This is part I, its not bad, i din have time to watch it last year, so i got a chance to download and watch it this sem break~ Looking forward to the last movie the Part II ~

8 out of 10!

This movie is really epic funny!~ Haha, i swear if u dont laugh, i'll take off my pants~ LOL~~~

PS: Jessica Alba is soooooooo HAWT !!!!!!! =D

7 out of 10 !

OMG!!! This movie was introduced by Jeffrey Chin =) I like watching Jessica Alba acting, she's just so beautiful and damn sexayyyyyyy~~ xD Ok did i mention she was my goddess?? Hahaaa~

Naked scene, sex scene, comedy, love story~

8 out of 10 =)

Actually this movie is okok only~ Its about Robert being extremely unlucky when meeting that beard guy~ haha~ some funny parts in between though~

6 out of 10 ~

This is partially naked and sex scene, Now this is the movie that got me feeling just like the main actor! Its a typical love story but i really enjoy the storyline...Its great!

9 out of 10!

Oh! Action movie, i saw this guy on screen for 2nd time, the first time was him acting in the movie "Stormbreaker", i think not much of you watched it though...This movie is nice, i love superhero movies but this one is special, if you watched it you'll know, there will be a sequel to this =)

9 out of 10 !

Oh!! i still got Battle Los Angeles and Tron Legacy havent watch, i just finish downloaded it =)

Okayyyyy, so the rest of my holidays was playing NBA 2K11 the My Player and Jordan Challenge, DotA, and some Maple~ =D

More of the other times i was taking care of my grandma though, and sometimes hanging out with friends here like Goh, Jing Hou, Ah B, Teck Lek, Zi Wei, Lucia, Ting Ding...even saw the Form 6 gang at the Medan mall~ Cool~~

比较emo的我~

2011-05-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

又到了夜深人静的时候，我每次都等没有人吵我的时候才写部落格，这样子灵感比较多~用的字没有那么肤浅，哈哈~开玩笑啦，不过没有人的时候会比较容易专心的写~

这么久以来，我都始终觉得自己是一个很开朗的人，其实我真的很爱笑，可能我笑起来样子不大好看，甚至有人觉得我笑得很假，其实我就是这样子笑，不懂做么~我只有真的觉得好笑的我才会笑，不好笑的我带过而已~

好了，离题了~

我真正想要写的东西是我比较emo的一面，我不知道为什么自己会变成这个样子，是我自己造成的吗？我不知道。。。我通常比较喜欢把自己emo的那一面藏起来，可是这么做的话，会熬出病来，忧郁症都有可能，我试过，我知道~

主要emo的原因是因为感情~ 我只能说，我深深地爱过，也被深深地伤害过，我虽然没有显现出我曾经受过什么很大的创伤啊什么的, 我当然也知道还有很多很多人受过更大的创伤或者伤害。。。不过我觉得应该没有人真正的了解我的感受吧，很多东西我都知道你们怎么去想我。。。

很多人想：哎哟，没什么啦，忍一下啦，吞下口水就过了啊，一下子就没事了，不要伤心了~

可是一个心一当碎了，它是需要时间康复和还原的，而且好了过后一定会留下疤痕的。。。当你想起那个疤痕的时候，你就会突然想哭了~

很多人又说：哭什么哭，男人可以哭的么？

这个你去问刘德华啦，他唱过，他知道~

很多人都是曾在感情中受过伤害，这是难免的，不过有一点，很多人都不明白，为什么要这样子去伤害一个人呢？这也没有人懂，可能他觉得这样子做其实没有什么，没有想到后果是那个人其实是会为了这份感情而伤心很久很久，而且可能永远都不敢再尝试爱情了~

很多歌都唱关于爱情的。。。为什么？因为人是重感情的，这世上让人想最多，烦恼最多的事情不是钱，是感情！！你敢说不是吗？

我相信很多都是过来人啦，都差不多会明白我所写的东西吧。。。我知道我写得不是很好，因为我的华语不好。。。我就随便抒发下我的感想，我的经历，我的意见。。。

我并没有在说任何人，这只是全粹我的想法~不过在读的人，应该都知道我的事情吧，不懂可以问我，哈哈~ 好啦，夜了，我要去做梦了~拜拜~~

PS: 我很久没有这种灵感了，谢谢你阅读我的文章，有意见的话可以在旁边的 chatbox 或者我的Facebook 留言，谢谢支持~!!

Friday the 13th ??

2011-05-12T21:37:00.000+08:00

I just saw the calendar and realize tomorrow is Friday the 13th...I believe you all heard of the movie (or some of u dont =P), there is a few interesting facts or u can say its a superstitious thing (mostly believed by the Americans), it is called Black Friday, which means there would be bad fortune for that whole day...Well, i dont really believe in this thing but it seems kinda real as it was a very long history and explanation about this Black Friday at the Wikipedia...lol~ Anyway, in 2011, this May is the only month that got Friday on 13th...Interesting huh?? Take a look at this blog that my friend Lawrence Kiing, here's another superstitious or u might say interesting method that u can try out on Friday the 13th... Well then, for now, have fun, for tomorrow, BE CAREFUL! xD just joking~ It depends on urself to believe it or not~ =)

Back to hometown, Sibu~

2011-05-06T18:17:00.002+08:00

After i come back here, i got a lot of news update...Apparently, my grandmother fell down from the stairs and broke her leg's bone, she went to operation and a metal was put in between the bones, i can imagine the pain inflicted on her...this news just broke my heart, and made me kinda no mood for quite a long time...

And my big bro just got a new baby, the baby name was Allan Lau Chang Xun (this laptop cant type chinese words) paiseh~lol~ and my offspring are going to be Lau Chang ... also~

Hmm~saw a lot of new gadgets at home, i just enjoy the food here, mom's cooking, sleeping til very late in the morning, enjoying holiday to the fullest...

PS: i never starve when i'm home~Hehe, a big different while i was at Kampar or KL or Ipoh or anywhere...xD

Summary of KL trip~(Very summary, xD)

2011-05-06T17:50:00.003+08:00

Tag for ice skating~

SS before skating~

Our messy room, all just playing games...xD

Sze Yee's birthday !!

Almost dinnered at Full House~

Dinner at Manhattan Fish Market~

Getting ready for Sunway Lagoon~

BBQ group photo~

Short to tall??

Getting ready for ice skating~

The fun and exciting Sunway Lagoon~

Brunch at Kim Gary's

Saw Dizzy Wind and his friends...

Checking out from the hotel..

Ipoh Second Day~

2011-05-06T17:44:00.002+08:00

Bowling in Ipoh Parade~

BBQ Night~

Can't get in the front seat, so we sit at the back seat - "Rebecca Black"

The Four Golden Flower?

The 4 lengluis~

Ok, the second day, breakfast near the housing area, driving manual Avanza, went to ipoh parade and jusco, played bowling, 1 hour finding parking, saw Soo Teng working there, and then back to the house again to prepare for BBQ~

Ipoh First day~

2011-05-06T17:36:00.002+08:00

We went for dinner at Airport in De Garden...

The place is very beautiful, i can imagine how much they put into the renovation there...the food was ok, but the drinks there are damn expensive...

After that we went to Tang Shui Jie~ Eat the Rojak and Fruit ABC, damn nice...

Sem.3 break~

2011-05-06T17:03:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since i wrote...haha~ Just being lazy hanging around...lol~

OK~After the exhausting and crazy difficult finals, we did a LOOOOT of things...

First of all, after the last paper, we took some photos at the library block there...after that went to secret recipe to taste the VERY DELICIOUS cheese cakes, OMG!!! i still remember the smooth taste and sweetness of the cheese cakes, it was the best...xD

And then we went back to Westlake to move our things to our new house > 1186!! yeah, it took quite a while and there was tons of things to move, it was very tiring also...until 10pm onli we got time to eat dinner at MM, and 11pm smth onli go CC, haha~

The next day, we move the rest of our things and check out from our room, took some time also, until 1am onli we start our journey to IPOH~~

The entire IPOH trip was fun, we were very grateful of Xin Yi's aunt's great hospitality and kindness to let us stay at her house..Sorry for any problems caused...But we certainly would not forget those 2 cute lil monster...haha~The childrens are really active and cute~haha~

The Finals~

2011-04-24T01:01:00.002+08:00

Coming to the end of sem.3, awwww man~~ Its very fast....Time i mean, its very fast....You can't chase it, you only can use it wisely...Geeez, its too much cock edi~lol~

Ok, so obviously, for all the foundation students, final exam is coming...its very intense and nervous, and all ppl were feeling not enuf time to study or smth...i feel ok...just a bit stressed maybe but i guess my girl were more stress than i do...she was very afraid, i hope and pray for everything good happen to her =) Hope she knows that i care about her more than the words i said to her...

Yeah well, gotta sleep early, just to tell u its been long since i've updated my blog, not bcos of exam though, just pure lazyness, sometimes, reading others' blog would inspire you to write one too, for this post i was inspired by a mysterious fren =X haha! ok~ gotta sleep...ciao~

Learning and staying alive...

2011-03-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone, its been a while since i've updated my blog...paiseh ya...>.<

Oh well, lately, it has been hectic days for me, i spent most of my times on studying for the 2 tests coming soon this week, and most of my friends here also busy studying to get good results for the tests...

These days, i came across a lot of new knowledge of how to be a better person, i'm still learning though. Learning to improve my weaknesses, learning how to talk things without offending anyone, learning........

I found out how important i am for you. I care a lot about you. No matter what happens between us, i know i still have the love for you and have the care to concern about you, everytime you're hurt or feeling down or feeling frustrated, i always will try my best to make you feel better, i'm also learning about this too...I hope you know how much i care about you, because seriously, if you are not in my life, i can't imagine how do i live. Its just like this song below...

Sang by Trisha Yearwood

Sang by LeAnn Rimes (The original singer for this song)

And i also can't imagine you going to KL alone, while i'm here at Kampar, but i sincerely hope you made the choice that you want, get a good result and get a good job after your degree. I love you. XY~

Our song~ ♥

Lately in March~

2011-03-12T14:23:00.002+08:00

Yo dudes and chicks...haha, i'm back again...reporting what has happened in March lately...

Well, reli not much things happened actually, just same old school days...haha~Just gonna post some photos though...

I personally really like this photo with lab coat...

Bachelor of degree?

This one very nice too~

Yeah this is classic...xD We got our hairs up up all the way...

Nice hairs everyone...i mean the hairs on ur head...=D
What am i holding actually? Well, it depends on ur imagination...xD

Just the way we are~

Sometimes, we just gotta enjoy the little things...xD

We all have to strive hard to reach our target...and when we reach it, thats the time we success..

Yeah well, Tsunami just happened again yesterday after the earthquake in Japan, although not much ppl died, but its still precious lives, gotta pray for them...Go listen Justin Bieber-Pray if u need to...

On my side of life, life is tough, but we grow up through the tough times, that's why we are created...Bad things come and go, good things come and go too, get use to it, man!

I hope you can work hard for ur academic results too, XY...i know u can do it...trust yourself, be confident, there's nothing standing in ur way, work all ur way up !! Add oil~

Basketball night~

2011-03-05T01:58:00.004+08:00

Oh that's right man! Its the basketball night instead of COD and DotA...haha~ It was a great night, had plenty of fun, and a lot of ups and downs or falling down...lol~

I fell down, but i stand up! That's who we are...we all fall down sometimes, but eventually we will stand up anyway, because this is the way of life, this is the principle that everyone should follow in this world. Although sometimes we shed tears, or even blood, we should stand up and face it, instead of running away from it. Of course, BRAVERY is an important element.

Ok, let's just see who was there at the basketball court tonight, Jeffrey of course, it would be weird if he was not around when it comes to basketball...haha~ Chong Wei and Chee Xuan too, very fast and accurate shooting ar...so geng~~haha, and there were also Terran Sai, Vui Kit, TC Hao, Fei Tucq, Sau Fui Hung, Zhen How, and there was a girl too, who was Sau's friend from Sabah too...

We played a lot of games...and now my legs are barely walking...2moro sure muscle pain...xD but anyway, its good to sweat like this...It was very song!! Haha...

Oh well, i love basketball too actually, just not so long ago, but i'm still learning too, as a hobby...of course i'm still just a noob~ xD i know i did many mistakes lar, haha, paiseh ar...i just learn it 9 months ago...lol~

Anyway, we played from 8 smth to 12 smth...it was tiring but fun...Now 2am smth already, gotta sleep ler i think...Yeah i am~ So ciao~~~ xD

Oh ya, just got closer with you again...i actually love this feeling...we already got used to each other's accompany, so i think it would be hard for us to live without each other in our lives, yeah well, let's just see where this goes...i can't promise anything...

Come on Man!! Stand UP !!!!

2011-02-27T23:17:00.004+08:00

It's been a while since i've written smth normal on my blog...lol~

Well, away with all the emo post, i found out that i am an optimistic guy after all, of course with all the brothers backing me up and are always there for me~Yeah, no doubt, if you are reading this, Thats YOU, MAN !! haha~

In fact, i'm a changed person, with all the experience i got, i learn to be a better person now~

Let's talk about my activity lately, last week, i had 3 tests which is Optics, Chemistry and Programming Concept. That 3 tests cost me my sleep time, play time, and shit time...(or maybe not shit time, i still got a little bit time to shit =P)

Ok carry on, after the test, got a full report to do, but i finished it quite early so i got longer time to play...Hehe~

Friday is always the day that i've been waiting for, cos it is when all of us brothers gather and have fun, shoot and shout like crazy and to release our stress and of course strengthen out brotherhood...I'll never forget all those fun moments we had, man~xD (we played COD4 and Dota~)

Oh!! Saturday baby~~Noon COD again, at night we played basketball and then they came my room to watch Haunted Changi and American Pie:Beta House...xDD Just the kind of saturday that i want...=D

Today was ok for me...Ok, enough craps, let's see some of my photos lately...

Cute?? xD

The Band Of Brothers

We're not boys anymore! xD

Blackjack~~~~

What are you looking at??

What a slut!

Not enough sleep~

Still gotta be handsome sometime too...xD

I think i wont ever be the same after this...this time i really climbed so high and fall down so hard...i know what i'm gonna do next time...^^

我明白了~

2011-02-21T20:19:00.005+08:00

经过这件事情过后，我终于知道以前的我是多么的笨，不过爱情本来就不能拿来作比较，我也不需要太计较~你要我放开你，我已经成全你了，希望接下来的你会过得更好，更开心~因为我知道我给你带来很多不开心和烦恼，都是我的错~

其实我想了很久才做这个决定，这可能是对我们最好的决定。

所说的：如果她是你的，不管什么事情发生，她怎样都是你的，如果不是你的话，她永远都不是你的。

这句话是对的~

我已经没有遗憾了，我深深地爱过，真心的付出过，我其实并没有吃亏~我没有后悔~

谢谢你也爱我一下子~

一下子已经够了~

我只是需要一些时间适应，我会没事的。。。

还有谢谢大家的关心，没有你们的支持，我也没有今天~ =)

A story of a stupid boy.

2011-02-21T17:15:00.003+08:00

So, it has been a long time since i updated my blog...Never really had the time or the motivation to write a post...But now i do...So i'm gonna tell u all a short story~

Once upon a time, there was this stupid boy named Bird, who fall in love with a girl. Therefore, he chased the girl, and on 23/7, they got together. It was count as the best day of his life in Kampar ever since his friends from Sibu had left the town.

They had a tons of sweet moments and experienced a lot of happy, sad, exciting, and stupid things. After 2 months, the results for Sem.1 came out. She had a bad result. She decided to breakup with the boy. The boy was devastated. He experience the first highest falling of his life. He had no one to turned to. He had no choice.

The girl was cruel. But Bird did not give up. He believe that the girl is still in love with him. He tried and said a lot of things to her, she finally accepted him back. That is the first experience of the boy's worst nightmare.

The boy did a lot things for her, he seldom asked for anything in return. He put 100% into the relationship. The girl starts to criticize him in many ways. But the boy still compliments her at the same time. He thought she was kidding. She even said some mean words to him that made him unforgettable.

One day, during Sem.2 sem break, she suddenly tell him:" Let's breakup. Sorry. Can we just be friends?" The boy was like:" WTF?? What did i do wrong?" He never get the answer for this. But the boy said some crazy words which he never said to a girl before. He regrets it. But they eventually got together again. That was the second knife through his heart.

Sem.3 begins. At first, everything was still ok, but the boy realize more and more things, clues that the girl had changed. He thinks that she might not love him anymore. But he choose to pretend that he doesnt know anything.

One day, he can't stand it anymore. He said all the truths out and the girl confirmed that all his early judgement were all true. She said:" I don't love you anymore." The five words that instantly stopped the boy's heart, the boy keep asking why, when, how, what happen. The girl just answered:" I don't know." The boy cried, this was the deepest stab through the heart, after that the girl couldn't see the guy suffering, then she wanted him back to be her BF. But everything was not the same anymore.

Up until after Valentines Day, the topic came up again. The same tragedy happen again. The feeling has changed. The boy can't feel anything for a few days. He went so up high, and suddenly fell into the deep valley.

Well, easy to say, the boy is ME. I learned a lesson, and i appreciate those who had cared about me. I know one thing from all of this. I won't be the same anymore.

Back in blogging? I dont know~

2011-02-04T21:53:00.002+08:00

I havent been writing for about a month...why??

There are quite number of reasons why i dont wanna write...but i think most of u know(if u asked and i said)~

A lot of things happened. Lots of things have changed. Can i dont be a part of it? I tried to stay the same, I do. But.......

End.

2011-01-10T20:39:00.003+08:00

Maybe its time for me to stop writing. This may be the end of my blog. Goodbye.

Thanks for being my readers. Appreciate it.

Changed?

2011-01-03T09:58:00.002+08:00

Why do all things change in a blink of an eye?

Could we ever be the same again?

I know i'm not the same nice guy anymore.

WHAT HAPPEN ?

2011-01-02T20:39:00.002+08:00

July also a meaningful month for me. :D 23/7 is the day we start :) and until forever. Im blissful to have you in my life, your caring, your tolerant, your accompany, your help, your love, your sacrifice, your everthings i will appreciate and treasure it. :)

WHAT HAPPEN TO THE "UNTIL FOREVER" AND "TREASURE IT" ??

2010 Bye~ 2011, Hi~~

2011-01-02T09:04:00.004+08:00

So 2010 is behind us now...2011 which is now, is a whole new start for all of us...Oh yeah...

2010 was a long long year for me, some part, i wanted it to end as soon as possible, but some part, i wanna keep it until the end of my life...

So erm, a summary for my 2010:

January until March: the part that i hate...i went to the NS and get a "beautiful" haircut...i will never forget this...although in NS, there were really some parts that i miss, which is being wif my frens, Wui Shyon and other new frens that i met...

Mid of March: Oh i rmb this, we got our SPM result...thats why we came out of NS early...thank god for that...LOL !! i was actually ok wif my results, but not totally satisfied lar...

April-May: University hunting, i didnt want to go for Form 6, neither college, neither being a teacher, so i choose to go for university and study foundation, since it is only one year mah...then can go for degree already... So i got a few choices, but in the end, I chose this...

Regret ?? Yeah, with all the unlimited test, assignments and reports...

Happy ?? Yeah, with all the friends and even a girlfriend here...

Of course there are pros and cons of this school, but we just have to learn to bear with it lar....

End of May-And we went to UTAR in Kampar, Perak...

End of June- Jing Hou left...

July- Eddy, Jeffrey, Siang left...I went KL with them, and had a quite good time there...

And for July this month...it was special for me, how to say ?? i found my true LOVE ^^

23/7/2010 would be the greatest day in 2010 forever !!! =)

I'm happy that u came into my life, OR i shud say i walked into ur life...haha, watever, as long as for NOW, we are in each other's life for sure ^^

August- Having fun relax and fooling around...

September- Sem.1 Final exam....oh my~~ tough life...and then sem. break, wow, time to rest...

October- Begin our Sem.2, friends birthday, Xin Yi's birthday...

November- Same old stuff, friends birthday and the usual tests, assignments and reports lor...

December- Best fun of the year...My birthday...Winter Solstice with frens, Christmas also...Final exam, hate it...31st countdown at KL sentral....

Oh, thats about the end 2010...Yeah well, after final exam, we went to the A station, then went for basketball, then watch movie at my room...the next day we went to KL, i had a chance to shop for something...countdown there, and then go back to Sibu, my hometown...

Oh now, i rest for the whole day on 1/1/2011, cos it was too tiring being at KL cos i cant have a nice sleep...so after i come back, i sleep about most of the time...

Today...2/1/2011, i've been reading all ppl's blog...and i think suppose i shud write also, hahaha...

nvm i did write anyway...

So ciao~ for now~ Hope to have a good rest here and meet with my old friends...

希望越大，失望越大。。。

2010-12-23T18:13:00.002+08:00

我又学会了一样东西，那就是希望越大，失望越大。。。

不能和你过冬至，没什么，原本能和你过圣诞的，可是后来因为你要回怡保所以不能了，没什么，我知道连新年也不能和你过了，应该也没什么吧。。。计划还可以在计划过的。。。

没得到你妈妈的祝福，什么都不能。。。没什么啦，距离也是一个问题啦。。。不能怪任何人。。。不用考虑到我的感受吧，你听妈妈的话就对了。。。

还有四天就要考试了。。。我心情低落到不能再低。。。希望你能够很努力的读书吧，我知道你也不想让任何人失望的。。。对不起，害到你跟妈妈吵架，都是我的错。。。加油吧，欣薏~~我爱你~~我知道我幼稚，我无理取闹，希望你能接受。。。对不起~

下个Sem吧。。。欣薏。。。我想你想到疯了吧。。。哈哈~

TO: My Lou po zai~

2010-12-16T01:21:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry, lou po zai, although its a not a big deal, and u din blame me at all, but i think i should do ur timetable first de, although i do it at the same time, but mine can login, urs keep try also cant, dunno y...haiz, nvm lar, at least the timetable doesnt suck at all...

I'm sorry that you felt emo and din get the chance to see the meteor...Dont think too much right now, just think about ur final exam lor, u shud work hard on that...and dont ever forget that I LOVE YOU !!!! and i will support u all the way~~help u all the way~~~ =)

From: Birdman~

My ECS Sketch~

2010-12-15T15:36:00.004+08:00

I'm Birdman in this movie, as my friends always call me bird bird here in Kampar...lol~

The whole sketch went quite well, it's so relieving after the sketch, so we took some photos after that~~haha~

I acted as Birdman the superhero, Xin Yi is the kidnapped rich girl, Amy and Yin Ying act as the kidnapper, while Francis and Woon Yee act as mother and father of Xin Yi then they act as police again~~

Gotta thanks all my friends that came to support and to those did not came but also gave me support~haha, thank you all !!

Birdman~

I saw meteors !!!

2010-12-15T14:41:00.004+08:00

Oh my~~this can say is my first time to see so many meteors in my life ar...wow, at least 10 meteors i saw...geng~

I made some wishes, hope it can be true bah~~ ^^

Yeah, tats about all of it lar...xD

Oh ya hor, for photos u can see it at Facebook and also Vui Kitty's blog~ hehe~

My 18th Amazing Birthday~

2010-12-12T11:41:00.007+08:00

So my birthday started with a suprise by Raye, he wore girls costume like he did during his sketch, and hide in inside my bathroom and the suprised me~Next, at friday night, Me, Xin Yi, Vui Kit, Jeffrey, Fei Tucq, Fennie, Ah Siew, Sze Yee, Choon Hao and Chong Wei went to sing karaoke at the A-box...It was a very high and crazy night...we all sang happily and keep laughing when some of the songs comes out, i think we maybe sang around 100 songs tat night ?? but some of the songs just half half lar...

And yes, Xin Yi u sang quite well ^^

One of our favourite part of the night, Vui Kit singing with Fennie for the song 屋顶~ Wow, Fennie's vocal amazed me...and they both sang very well, romantic betul !!

Oh my~cream nite at my house~
I wasnt aware of Fei Tucq holding a bunch of cream at his right hand...i just smile like a stupid there...lol~

Hehe~

A gift from Jeffrey and Vui Kit~

After that, we went to play pool !!! such a fun game~

And then after that, we went to eat Lok Lok~~xD

Ok, thats all my birthday celebration in Kampar, it was amazing and full of suprise and fun~ I'll never forget about this 18th Birthday~

Again i have to say thank you to my Lou Po Zai for her present, a Sub T-shirt~ and Jeffrey and Vui kit's Lee Cooper t-shirt, Soo teng's coffee mug, and also sze yee's rocky~haha~

Also thanks to all the wishes that i received either from sms, facebook, calls, and also face-to-face wish...it was too much so i cant even mention the name, but i guess overall its around 200 bah...lol~

Thank you everyone...My live is perfect with you all around me as my friend =)

Sorry that i fooled you all~

2010-12-05T01:05:00.008+08:00

Well, it was a boring evening, i was too lonely and bored and suddenly thought of a stupid but genius idea...I had to see who will fall for it and really had the heart to comfort me...

Yo, so this is wat happened...

Well, let's unveil the truth~

Actually we faked the fight...it was my idea actually, but she thinks that it would be interesting also...So we did it anyway...it felt kinda fun in the beginning, but when i see my friends come and comfort me and asked me what happened, this is the point that i realise i have a lot of good friends and they do really care about me as their friend...I felt a bit guilty also...teeeheee~

This touched me a lot...So i'm gonna say sorry that i fooled you all, but at the same time, congratulations, you have been fooled...But mostly sorry lar...haha~

These are some of the reactions of friends:

1. some saw and pretend didnt happened

2. some saw and ask me wat happened

3. some saw and tell me that everything is going to be ok

4. some ask me am i ok

5. some ask wat did i do

This is some kind of things that i do when i am bored and no one to talk to...Yeah well, i'm really glad that my friends are caring, like Ah Yew (he even called me and asked what happened, really touched though, love you man !!), Eddy, Fei Tucq, Benson, Soo Teng, Ong Wei Sheng, Teck Lek, Tay Vui Kit, Chang Wui Shyon (Frozen pro), Siang, Kit Lee, and others too)

Thanks for your caring and concern, now i really have to appreciate you all as my friends, thanks a lot~

Once again, it is just an act, I love Xin Yi more than anything else in my life other than my friends and family, but u still are the No.1 in my heart... even if we got into a fight, i must be the one to say sorry even though i'm not wrong, that's the way i love her... though i'm learning to put u before me and i cant be selfish...And it will not change...So,

Tang Xin Yi, I Love You !! and also thanks for cooperating with me on this one...haha, **high 5**

Sorry again~Have a great day~~=)

Saturday~

2010-12-04T22:26:00.003+08:00

I did not talk to anyone today...so that means not even a voice came out from my throat...

and i din went out of the house, not even stepped foot on the other floor...haha, just basically stuck in my room with my laptop and do boring things...i ate biscuits for my lunch and almost biscuits again for my dinner...lol~kinda funny...

So this might be the process of going crazy~Ah haa...

One tree hill and my weekend...

2010-12-04T11:48:00.004+08:00

Hmm...turns out this weekend is not as boring as i thought, thanks to One Tree Hill, Supernatural, NBA 2K11 and Black Ops, and also must thanks my super fast line lately...haha~

This drama certainly made me cried many times, its really amazing that it shows every bits of our lives...you all gotta watch it !!

I happen to fond the season 5, which talks about the apocalypse in bible, angels vs demons...

In latest season 6, its angels vs angels, lol~ yeah i know, its pretty messed up...

Yeah well, i really hope to see XY though, but i'm happy she's having a good time wif her family in Ipoh...how i wish to go there again...

ooookay, gotta do some maths though...bye~

我？

2010-11-28T23:56:00.006+08:00

我？我有时候真的希望有个人在我低落的时候陪伴着我，不一定要特定的谁啦，只要有人跟我一起分享下也好，不过这很难啦。。。我比谁更清楚。。。只是现在真的很想跟人分享，说说一下我的感觉。。。好想哭哦。。。眼泪真的在眼睛里打转。。。

爸妈和二哥今天来了金宝，看到他们真的很开心，想下也很久没有看到家人了，顿时让我的房间有家的感觉了，虽然很小，但是很温暖。。。我们绕了金宝一圈，去学校看看，去Tesco买东西，很久没有这种感觉了。。。妈妈还帮我打扫房间，真的很感动。。。他们离开的时候，舍不得的感觉说不出口。。。眼泪又忍不住流出来了，没有人懂我的感受吧。。。T_T 好久没有哭了，原来是这种感觉，不喜欢~

不过再多一个月，我就可以回家看到他们了。。。期待那时候~

深夜人静，别人睡觉我还在为数学考试猛做练习。。。我累了。。。厌倦考试了。。。我要休息！！！

还好有音乐陪着我，周杰伦，曹格。。。都很好听。。。

大学千万不要一个人去啊。。。很可怜的。。。

Just as Vui Kit said, stressed ar...i gotta have sometime to relax ar...haiz...

I'M GOING CRAZY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jay Chou 周杰伦跨时代演唱会~

2010-11-27T18:30:00.002+08:00

I wanna go to this concert so badly !!!!!!!

It will be damn cool !!! xD

Fell in love with this song lately !!

Aiyo Aiyo, bu cuo oh~~xD

Busy lor~~~

2010-11-27T18:07:00.003+08:00

I killed a rat !!!! We dissected a rat at Biology Practical~

(photos will be uploaded once i get it)

Haiz...Its weekend, but it doesnt feel like a weekend to me...

I have to study maths and organic chemistry for monday and tuesday test... but after the test, i'm sure gonna have crazy fun...xDD hehe~~

so...my mom and dad is coming to Kampar tomoro wif my brother...I hope everything will be going well for them...and for me too of cos...

Now share some photos that my girl liked sooo sooo much~~

Ignore my hair...haha~she looks so white~~~~i'm jealous lor ~

Great photo !! xD Steamboat with tz5~~had a great nite~~=)

Games Games Games, test is coming but still games !!! xD

2010-11-24T01:16:00.002+08:00

Oh my~~~ i havent been playing games in a long time...lol~ now suddenly all these games come out, and i had to get it... its too good to be true...i'll share 4 of the greatest games lately out of 10 other games i just got...

No.1 - The greatest first-person shooter video game ever made, Call of Duty Black Ops~

It was the fastest selling games in the record !! Zombie back on the play...xD

No.2 - My favourite basketball game !! NBA 2K11, the best basketball game ever made...

this is the first game i downloaded since sem.2. I fell in love with this game...Its got Michael Jordan...

You guys gotta try the Jordan Challenge and the My Player...its really cool !!

No.3 - Need for Speed Hot Pursuit 2010...
Finally the feeling of speed came back to me, remember back then i was a big fan of NFS too...

Finally a game that fulfill my speed desire...(nfs game sucks since prostreet...haiz...)

And this one got Lamborghini Reventon as a cop car... GENG !!! xD

No.4 - Starcraft II, i know this game is not so new, but i just got it recently...quite ok de lar...

Got it from ST anyway...

Better weekend ??

2010-11-19T23:12:00.004+08:00

Had a really tiring friday... >.<

TVK also tired til sleep in the middle of the air...lol !
My girl decided to stay back at Kampar this weekend...Yoohoo!!! so happy !!! xD

Finally a happier weekend in sem. 2. haha...

Fennie's sister come Kampar again, TVK's mother also coming tomoro...And my mom and dad and brother is coming next week...kinda looking forward to that, hope they bring $$ or present to me...xD

TQ Fennie and Siew, the egg tart delicious betul...

I found that i'm pretty good at acting cute ^^ xD

我爱你 ♥

2010-11-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

我关心你多过我关心我自己。我爱你多过我爱我自己。我不在乎别人说我，可是我在乎别人怎么说你。每次不管是谁的错，我都说是我的错，因为我不想让你觉得自己不好或则不完美。总之，你在我心里是完美的。可能，这就是我的自私吧~

Sharing photos time~

2010-11-14T00:26:00.008+08:00

Sem.1 finished, i went to ipoh wif XY~

And of course with these guys too~xD

Sem. 2 begins, Chinese Mooncake Festival...and a BIG THING happened after this...Changed my life forever after...

Soo Teng's Birthday, we played water...lol~all wet wet jor...

Biology practical, everyday look at the microscope...i'm not a biologist lar... >.<
A little bit fun at the chemistry lab, nowadays we keep doing chemical test...quite bored...

at ipoh parade~~

we took this before goh left...

Height arranged...xD

UTAR = Unlimited Test, Assignments and Reports~ or so called Universiti Tak Ada Rehat...

Fennie's Birthday~ Weee~

I drove to Ipoh for this, worth so much~~xD

Just the way you are, my love~

Soo Teng's Birthday~~

A great photo~Taken outside physics lab, been doing all about electrics in this semester...bored...

I know i'm cute, same goes to Fennie~xD

Went to gym with the gang! xD

Chinese Cultural Night~got a famous singer, 品冠 come to UTAR and sing~~xD

Took this on Jeffrey's Birthday~~

Act cute xia lar...dun blame my childishness~

The hair fall down a bit jor...Argh~~

Delicious ice-cream~~xD

Most of the TZ5~

Fooled~xD

Dont rape me !!!

Saw a black ferrari at kampung area...lol~

My girl, TVK and i~

Me and all the Sabahans~

XY me and Jeff~

Big lollipop gang wor...like this~~xD

I havent got to share a lot of things lately, just keep writing about how emo i am, so 肤浅, kns punya...

But tat emo me wont appear here again for some time...

This weekend, i thought i wasnt gonna be alone finally, but haha, alone also lar, no big deal...

Quite hard to find a fren chat right now ar...quite sad about that...no big deal also lar...

Dun wan emo liao lar...feel so lame and stupid...

Hope you enjoyed the photos~~Been too lazy before, so din share the photos here, haha, paiseh lar...There are more, but i'm reli lazy ler...haha~

Well, i celebrated many people's birthday here at Kampar, including the one and only, my lovely wify, Xin Yi~~Chee Xuan, Fennie, Jeffrey, and Soo Teng...Mine is soon-to-be...i hope i wont get played too much like them...lol~haha~xD
More photos can be seen at my Facebook lar...at my tagged photos there...

Hope you all have a nice day and dont lose yourself in all these busy days, and this lost city...lol~
talk cock betul...

Anyway, just add oil in everything...xD

Friends...

2010-11-06T23:50:00.003+08:00

Close friends? Distant friends? True friends? Real friends?

Today i got the chance to call my long time no see + lost contact friends. Because most of the times, all friends are very busy with their studies and their things. Which made us lost contact. I called Gene Ng, Lawrence Kiing, Zi Wei, Ah Yew, Ah Hong, Kelly Chew, Emily, Yoyo, Ting Ding, and Sin Ling...

Among all of them, the 2 longest chat is with Gene and Lawrence. I shared a lot of things with them, and i finally came open up myself to tell the truth. It was quite relieving when i let it out. The others either too busy or do not know my new number or do not want to pick up my phone, i dont know...

Finally got the chance to chat with them 2, i had quite a nice chat with them, tell my hearts out...feels kinda good...but the others, hmmm......just suan ler bah......

I really hate myself of being so emotional, i thought i've changed since i came to Kampar, i should be a very optimistic person, just like Gene. She went to maktab in Kelantan alone...and she keep saying, its ok lar, just get use to it then ok ler...I am so jealous how she can handle her emotion like that...i wish i could be as strong as her...

I was on the way of becoming a person who can accept things as it is when i came here...But it came to me after WHAT happened, i still cant accept the reality and i turned into some kind of freak, and fking emotional person.
i guess no one can understand me anymore.

THIS IS NOT WHO I AM.

I wasnt like this. I want myself back. ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH~

Busy Busy Busy~

2010-11-05T23:03:00.002+08:00

I kept my time occupied with presentation preparation and reports for the most of today...
so that i wont feel so emo...haha~
Gambateh to all of you ar~
12.40 ler...I still haven take my shower...lol, geng lar...

Happy or Sad ?

2010-11-05T01:43:00.002+08:00

This blog used to be the place where i share all my happy things...
Not really sure since when it starts to become a place for me to share all my sad things and emo things...
Am i affected ? i guess maybe i am...Am i trying to get some attention ? I dont know...
Or maybe i just want to let the things in my heart out ? Yeah i think so...
i couldnt share some things in my mind, not to anyone at all, i used to share with friends, i still do, but not everything anymore, because i try to hide myself deeper and deeper, i'm just afraid in the end, even i cant find myself too...
My friend Tina Ting, was kinda busy lately, she used to be my listener and my advisor, and i be hers too, but now with all the busy assignments going on, there's no chance to share anything with her too...
As for my friends in Kampar, not that i dont want to share or feeling not close with you all, i feel close with you all, in fact, you all are my best friends here, but i just feel that i should not let my feelings get to you all, just let me bear with the emo, i cant affect their mood and their emotion.
So this place has officially became my diary, for the sad things, hopefully some happy things too, if i wasnt too lazy to write about it...
Totally lost myself already, i'm a changed person after "THAT".

悲观的我~

2010-11-03T00:29:00.003+08:00

才发现我的情绪是有时间性的，就是我一个人的时候，超不喜欢的。。。果然不出我所料，还是我自己假装快乐，算了吧，反正就了，我对我的EMONESS就习惯了。。。身为射手座的我，最厉害伪装快乐。。。哈哈~

想念以前的我。。。快乐的我。。。。。。

快乐的一天总有悲伤的时候。。。快乐给你，悲伤我拿。。。^^

乐观的我~

2010-11-02T01:13:00.004+08:00

最初的我，是多么的简单，少烦恼，少忧愁，少顾虑。。。现在的我，真的已经变了吗？
想说我以前并不是这么悲观又EMO的人，只是发生过的一些事实，到现在还是无法改变。。。
难道乐观的我，真的已经不见了吗？

我试着把自己隐藏，但是我不想别人认为我是一个悲观的人，所以我选择了朋友。。。
只要看到别人的开心，可能我就开心了。。。小小简单的快乐就足够了。。。

为什么人生就这么多道理，哲学，那么多烦恼，那么多难过的事，我敢说，我已经经历了很多事情，学到了很多东西。。。已经不再去犯同样的错误了，但是，总是有新的错误。。。

有时候真的很需要一些安慰，可是到最后都是我自己安慰自己，告诉自己没什么啦，日子还不是这样过。。。多么希望有人可以安慰我，能够让我觉得人生并没有那么悲惨，那么痛苦，尤其是“她”，竟然已经是我生命中不可少的人，但是我有时还是觉得我是一个人在承受我自己的痛苦，悲伤。。。

我很常说:“没有啦，没有什么啦，OK的。。。” “很好啊，有什么不好”
试着掩饰我心中的感觉。。。有时真的觉得，我的心已经围了一道墙，连我自己都感觉不到我的心了。。。

读了这一编，不要觉得奇怪，也不要问我为什么。。。可能我从这么久以来，都没有说我的心事了，已经讲不出我心里的话了，只好写在这里。。。
不是我想要说我有多么悲惨，只是觉得这里是我唯一可以发泄的地方了。。。

1.30am，是该睡觉了。。。拜拜~

The 2 me~

2010-10-30T23:42:00.002+08:00

Vui Kitty told me that, weekdays de Bernard and weekends de Bernard is different...My weekdays are happy and enjoyable, it doesnt mean that my weekends arent, but its just that my weekends, is more alone, and more bored as i am alone at home most of the time...and that makes me emo...

So i try to occupy my time as much as possible to hang out with Kitty and Jeff Jeff, Fei Tucq and the others...

How do i occupy my time ?
I watch movie, listen to the music, play some basketball, do some tutorials, study a little bit, clean up my room, sleeping for most...

Sometimes even chatting also wont get fast reply...so i rather talk to the wall, haha~

Today is quite a tiring day for me...went to the gym, went to lunch, went to tesco, went for dinner, went to play basketball...I do all this to stay away from the loneliness and boredom...

Haiz...in the end, alone juga...sien...

100 天了~ ♥

2010-10-29T07:40:00.005+08:00

TO: 老婆仔 ♥

老婆仔，我们终于100 天了~ =) ♥

在这100 天里，我们经历了很多东西，又开心的，刺激得，冒险的，欢乐的，伤心的。。。还有很多起伏低落，人生就是这样嘛。。。UPS AND DOWNS 的。。。

我也学会了很多东西，我学会了如何爱你，宠爱你，学习忍耐，包容，体贴，关心你~还有宽恕你~

人不是一个完美的动物，每个人都会犯错，只是看他们犯了错，肯不肯悔改，能不能不再犯同样的错了。。。
所以我也是会犯错，一些小小的事情，可能我会很介意，不过现在我不会了。。。因为我学会了。。。

我希望我们还有很多很多个100 天可以过。。。还有我希望你快乐每一天。。。不快乐的话，我的肩膀永远都会是你的依靠。。。

希望你看了我写的这些，脸上会有一个笑容，那就代表你也爱我了。。。:-) ♥

From: 你的 B 仔~ ♥

Lost~

2010-10-24T19:14:00.001+08:00

Kinda lost myself in the middle of these busy days...

Try to find myself after these busy days...

What to do when i find it ?? o.O

I'm tired~

2010-10-23T22:15:00.002+08:00

I'm tired...

Tired of reports and exams, tired of not getting enough rest...

I want to know what should be the reason for me to keep going where the ending is really really far...

I'm afraid, in the end, i'm all alone, and there's only me and my shadow...

I wonder why people have all the energy while i don't...

Gotta prove to myself that i can...

Let's do it, man~

God~

2010-10-17T12:05:00.001+08:00

Once again, i was lost...lost in the thinking of YOU~

I need YOU, God~ Please help me out of my misery...

Help ??

2010-10-17T11:58:00.002+08:00

I was always there when you need help.

Now i need help, where are you ??

Or should i just help myself ??

I don't get it.

Happy Birthday My Girl ♥ I H.E.A.R.T You~

2010-10-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday to my girl, Tang Xin Yi~~~

I hope you enjoyed the two birthdays that i arranged for you...

Just like you said, one for the two of us, one with our friends...

Haha...i'm pretty glad that everything worked well~

Now you go enjoy your birthday in Ipoh bah~~

你应该知道你自己有多幸福了吧？哈哈~~ 尽情玩乐吧。。。

我爱你~生日快乐哦~

GIRLS~

2010-10-15T18:06:00.009+08:00

Newly Added !!! :- XY told me that girls are sensitive and they always feel lack of confident, it is built-in themselves...they are also afraid of not being like what their boyfriend wanted them to be...example like: not pretty enough, not slim enough or anything...

But XY, let me tell you this: You are the best miracle that happened to me, so don't worry about being not perfect, cos i am not perfect too~~~ =)

Seriously, i'm don't mean to offend anyone on this post, just wanna write out my own feelings and opinions, so no offense everyone, and no hard feelings~

Well well well, I read Sze Yee's blog...she wrote about MAN~

haha, its a good writing for sure, she's trying to figure out why guys like to see or even stare leng mui or leng lui or mei mei or whatever they call the girls nowadays...haha~

Generally, (HAHA, at least one thing i can generalize), haha, most girls dont like their boyfriends keep looking or staring at another girls, well, i understand the feeling, quite familiar actually, its about something that happened during my form 2...but i really dun wanna mention it here...

I just have to say, for me, i got a girlfriend too. So i have to take care of her feelings and her fragile heart just because guys are always the reason that made girls cry~

That is also why i know that when to look and when to stop...hahahaha~

I'm not gonna generalize men, cos different people have different point of view...

Just wanna say that, its actually normal for guys looking at girls, as long as, in their HEART, their girlfriend is still number 1 !!!! Yeah, thats right...

As far as i know, the Fei Tucq i know, really really really really loves His Girlfriend...Not to mention how much Sze Yee love him too ~~And i mean it~

So, 有一句老话说，退一步海阔天空，进一步全都是空。。。（后面一句我自己乱来的）哈哈哈~

我没有想要批评任何人的意识~只是想说出我们男人的心声而已~只要记得，身为男友的我们，永远都把女友视为生命中非常重要的人。。。

千万不可以轻易放弃~~

By the way, this girl added me...LOL !!

OH !!! PS : As for Jeffrey Chin ler...he is totally normal...HE IS NOT A GAY LAR, i don't mean that he is a GAY...he's just kind of desperate, cos i always hear him singing Tae Yang's song :" Girl, I need a girl~~~~~~Girl you need me too~~"

HAHAHAHAHA !!!!!

Bye Goh~~

2010-10-10T01:08:00.004+08:00

haiz, another leaver...lol~~from 6 to 1, and i hope that 1 will last the whole year...lol ==

a lot of different kind of emotions about my roommate, Goh leaving...lol~just dunno how to explain it... and for now, i'm lazy to explain too, lol~~

lazy lar............for more details, please go to vuikitty.blogspot.com ~ xDD

I'm ridin solo~~

2010-10-09T12:22:00.002+08:00

So, i'm all alone without any roommate, looks like i'm going to be quite lonely ler...haha~

but nvm, i'll learn to live with it...although i hate being alone...

I still love you ♥

2010-10-06T03:30:00.002+08:00

All things started from this~~

When all the things change, my love for you will never change~

All the things we've been through, our love shall not fade~

I love you more than you know it~

♥ is eternal~

Because

All the little things i did for you, it really came from within my heart~the sincerity, i hope you can feel it~~♥

I will never stop loving you~♥

More new songs to intro, from Alwyn's~~

2010-10-02T12:37:00.002+08:00

Cheer up, my friend...

2010-10-02T02:56:00.005+08:00

Lawrence Kiing, i'm not sure how long have i known you, but it is certainly enough for me to concern about your situation right now, and try my best to keep you happy and away from the sadness...

I'm sorry i did not talk to you much when "it" happened, maybe i was busy with something, or it all just slip through my mind...

I read all the latest post on your blog , http://iblaheverythinghere.blogspot.com/

I can see how hurt you are...Definitely unexplainable by words, believe me, dude, i know how it feels...

So that's why i gotta write this and let you know, i'm still here for you, dude~~You still got a lot of friends, including me of course, who really care about you...

I wish you all the best, Lawrence, you are a good guy, you sure can find a good girl...trust me, God is fair and He will never let you down...

Congratulations after your surgery, i think your hand now wont sweat anymore, right ?? xD

So, the bottomline is CHEER UP DUDE~~ ^^

And i just realised our smile has not changed~~xD

信任, Trust, Believe, Percaya~

2010-10-02T02:20:00.004+08:00

信任

这两个字

说难不难

说简单不简单

人往往在还不了解彼此之前

建立了信任

却在了解过后

留下了一辈子的不信任

谎言

不需要多

一次就够

一次的谎言

带来一辈子的不信任

给所有女孩:

男孩们有时候不是故意骗人

男孩们刚开始的认真

男孩们刚开始的老实

却换来吵架的局面

男孩们不舍得妳流泪

为了让妳开心

编制了一次又一次的谎言

那谎言很伤人

但男孩们的心

也会累的

他们也是人

他们讨厌吵架

他们自己更讨厌谎言

因为有了一个谎言的开始

他们就要用无数个谎言去掩盖那谎言

那男孩的辛苦

几个人去体谅过了?

我们女孩善于用言语表达我们的不快乐

善于用言语告诉大家我们内心的痛苦

男孩们不善于表达

在大家眼里

永远都是男孩的错误

其实

常常只是一句无心的话

可以造成无比的伤害

男孩们的伤

比谁都重

但因为他们不善于用言语表达

所有人都指责男孩

支持着女孩

其实你的不安全感

你的太在乎

会带给男孩无比的担心和烦恼

谁知道了?

男孩多么在乎你

嘴巴上不说

但是心里却是最在乎你

你..... 知道了吗?

男孩们内心的痛苦

只能在跟朋友出去玩的时候发泄

只能在烟酒里找麻醉剂

但女孩们只顾着自己担心男孩的身体

一直劝男孩不要伤害自己的身体

殊不知

就是因为妳

男孩才选择麻醉自己

男孩用这种方式去忘记那伤痛

女孩们用言语及眼泪

得到大家的同情和疼爱

那男孩呢?

给所有男孩:

当女孩们不开心

伤心流泪的时候

不是嫌她烦

女孩自己也很讨厌自己流泪

她也会很无助

你不了解女孩的眼泪

女孩的眼泪犹如钻石

你们只会怪女孩

哭什么哭?

眼泪能解决事情么?

男孩们有着烟酒麻醉自己

女孩呢?

女孩的谎言

是怕你担心

有些话说不得

怕你起疑心

只好选择不说

开始编织谎言

因为要你开开心心

不要你不快乐

女孩不能控制自己的不安全感

女孩不能控制自己的在乎

更无法控制自己的眼泪

流泪的她

该怎么办?

为了让自己开心

尽量寻开心

但男孩还觉得那女孩不在乎

难道女孩要学会让自己开心

也错了吗?

信任

有多难?

但

又谈何容易?

烟酒只能暂时麻醉

别为了不值得的女孩

伤害自己的身体

更把自己的形象搞得更糟糕

原本的你

是个多么纯洁的男孩

虽然痛苦

但我相信还有别的发泄管道

加油 ♥

眼泪只能暂时发泄

不如收起眼泪

拿出笑容

让大家知道

我们不用眼泪博取同情

我们的眼泪只给自己看见

不让别人看见我们的脆弱

带着笑容的妳

最美 ♥

Time to intro some songs lor ^^

2010-10-01T14:26:00.003+08:00

This post intro English songs~~Stay tuned for Chinese songs intro~~

What if i'm the one for you? and you're the one for me ??

Can i get an encore ???

Caught in the love hangover~~~

Locked in love i am~

The DJ got us fallin in love again~~ YEAH MAN~~

I just need somebody to loveeeeeee oh ohh~~

Never say never~~~

Chris Brown talks about himself after the "mistakes" he made by assaulting Rihanna~

The theme song for Step Up 3D

2012, a quite nice song~

It was only just a dream~~~

She's so beautiful, and i tell her everyday~~Cause you're amazing, just the way you are~~

So the angels do cry~

Everyone had their teenage dream~

Ah yew likes this~~

Something more ??

I'm always on Earth lar...lol~

Wah, Bro~~

2010-10-01T14:08:00.002+08:00

Whoa, i think i guess right this time...lol~~anyway, congratulations, bro~~

I finally finished week 2 in sem.2, quite a week, bit tiring lar, but quite happy ^^ there are many reasons i am happy, i think most of them know, especially her...i think its kinda good the "thing" that we have right now~

So, i'm gonna step up and work harder in my study soon~~gambateh everyone~

A little jokes for you guys~

Pain...

2010-09-26T23:30:00.001+08:00

Those words you said to me, its sharper than knives, harder than steel...

Its worse than death...

Start all over again...

2010-09-24T15:54:00.009+08:00

Sometimes, its not a bad thing to start over, on a new page~

I wish everything would be better, i really do.

And i wish everything will be better for her.

Its devastating for me. But i'll get through.

Because only i know how much pain i've been through and how pain are those words to me.

It makes me so small, and i feel so helpless.

I don't ever want to have this kind of feeling again. Not ever.

Let the time replenish us.

My heart is still with you.

Always and forever.

Back in Kampar~

2010-09-19T17:25:00.002+08:00

Finally, after rushing for the whole night, WE arrived at Kampar, from car to aeroplane, from aeroplane to bus, from bus to ktm, from ktm to car again to my house in Kampar~

So tiring, so exhausting, feeling sad and emo leaving my hometown, but at the same time, i'm feeling very happy and excited because i'm another step closer to see my Lou Po Zai and my frens in Kampar...

So the first person i saw in westlake is Jeffrey Chin, he was riding his bicycle outside to buy burger...lol~then after put down our burden, we went to fill out water then went to meet with jeffrey and vui kit~

It feels kinda weird, going back to school, and everything...after replenish myself at Sibu, i look everything with different kind of views, after what Hong told, i think i've changed, bit by bit...

Thanks vui kit for his souvenir he bought in Penang....haha~and dude, dont be so emo, u still have us~~ xDD

UTAR, i'm back for you, Dont ruin me and my frens especially HER in this Sem. 2, have mercy please~~~ >.<

Bye Sibu, Hi Kampar

2010-09-18T08:55:00.002+08:00

Just like the title said. I'm leaving Sibu and going to Kampar.

Feelings ?

Emo. Dun wanna leave. Sucks cos i'm going alone.

I'll see my frens there bah~Shud be quite happy...

Good news Bad news ??

2010-09-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

hmmmm...... there are good news and bad news for me tonight.......

but i'm not reli sure wat i feel right now...my roommate, Goh just decided not to study anymore because he gets a bad result, there goes my hometown's last hope...lol~

and for my girl, she failed some subject too, i wonder what is her decision next, but whatever decision she made, it will affect a lot of things between us and herself too...but i will respect whatever decision she make too...afterall, she is the person that i care most and love the most...:-)

as for myself, i think i'm gonna be quite lonely, cos all the times i used to chat along with Goh, the fun and crazy times we had, my Sibu's fren, i'm gonna be so alone >_<

I had a pretty good night out with my friends, went for "sight-seeing", car driving, eat burger, eat kampua with Yew, Hong and Zhuang...

I'm leaving tomoro (alone) to KL and alone again ride KTM to Kampar... =.= sien lor........i hate being alone~it freaking sucks~~~

Bye for now~ Eeeeeeeeeeemo~

又来到这里写了~

2010-09-16T00:30:00.008+08:00

好久没有用华语来写我的部落格了，今天来尝试用华语来写下吧。。。

最近我在干什么？

跟Ah Hong，Ah Yew，Goh 出来咯，喝茶，祷告，剪头发，还蛮不错的，我想念这种和朋友在一起的感觉，不错~ 可是觉得时间好像过得很快，随便睡一下，又过了一天~

有点矛盾的感觉，想要见我的老婆仔，又想要留在这里过轻松的生活，无忧无虑，自由自在。。。

为什么一定要读书叻？哈哈。。。无聊的问题。。。

你说我好像怪怪的，我也觉得没有你在身边，我老是怪怪的，不懂干吗咯，还是我太依赖你了？
不知道。。。（多的是，你不知道的事）。。。无聊啦，哈哈~

又是一个没有主题的post，不知道要写些什么。。。

阿鸿最近给了我一些感触，让我深深地感觉到他的改变，有点蛮羡慕他的，我也正在改变自己。。。我了解到自己的缺点，希望可以改掉我的坏习惯和缺点。。。

还有两天就要回西马了，是依依不舍吗？自由的美好？舒服床的诱惑？不想离开这里。。。

可是又很想你。。。。。。没有人知道我有多想你，已经到一种说不出来的程度了。。。

思念是一种病，没有错~

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生试着体会
试着忍住眼泪还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
借口总是拉远了距离不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚么蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离变成回忆
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Oh 思念是一种病
Oh 思念是一种病
一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那么美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Oh 思念是一种病
Oh 思念是一种病
一种病
谢谢

L.O.V.E as simple as A.B.C

2010-09-13T22:13:00.008+08:00

haha, 灵感~啊~灵感来了，啊，来了，来了~

xDD

i guess most of you know where did those chinese words come from if u saw tat video, lol~ ooops, this post is about LOVE~~

Finally i write something meaningful ?? haha, dun think so~

well, after such a long time no talk cock, i think now is a good chance for me to write it here ler, but it aint talk cock...its real~~

Love is simple. not as complicated as we think it is. Love, no matter what language it speaks, how we write it, anyway we draw it, it is still the same LOVE as we know it.

i just came to understand this for the first time on 23/7/2010, which is the day we got together...

i was falling in love so deeply that time, that i couldn't let myself out, so i let myself in~ it was her, yes it is, the one and only her, her name is XY. She is special, she is cute, she is irreplaceable, she is my TRUE LOVE, as from the word, LOVE, that i understand, it means u care for someone in which u do not ask for anything in return, and whenever she is happy, then u are happy...yes , i feel that way, everytime i get near her, or further away from her.

She's just too special, we thought a lot of " What if " and listened to the song " What if ", LOL !!! but whatever, we think we made the right choice, and always will be~

Lou po zai ar, i hope what i write wasnt too deep for u ar... just ask me if u dun understand...hahaha~xD

One more week til 20/7/2010, which is the day we start our Semester 2 in UTAR, and also the day i meet with my lou po zai after semester break... looking forward to that, but for now, ciao~~

post some photos u people wanted to see, just in case u did not check out my facebook~lol~

And i wanted my XY to know that, i remember all the special things we did, all the Troublems we've been through, memories we wanted to keep, the moments that we wanna catch, the movies that we wanna watch, the songs that we wanna hear, the time that we wanted to spend together, the everything that we shared~~ ^.^

Stressed~~

2010-09-02T23:13:00.001+08:00

Final exams now~freaking stressed and totally out of sleeping, eating, and playing mood... =.=

I want the exam to end ASAP !!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<

Back into blogging~

2010-08-31T17:50:00.002+08:00

wow, how long has it been ?? haha~its kinda weird to come back at this time, right ?? lol~i mean i've been through a hell lot of things after the last post, and almost 9 months after, i'm back at blogging...haha~so, do i have to share things 1 by 1 ??

well, FYI, now its exam for foundation in UTAR, everyday biting my notes, beh tahan and veli sien oledi, hahaha~~i'll be posting photos and renew a lot of things on my blog until i have the free time~for now, ciao~~~see y'all soon~~~xDD

Happy Birthday Kelly !!!!

2010-01-03T16:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY !!!!!

Kelly's birthday is the last one i got chance to celebrate before i go to PLKN~so i am grateful of this night where we can celebrate her birthday and hang out wif all of my frens~~it was a greatest night i've had in this year 2010...i hope Kelly Yew and Hong can enjoy their freedom and holidays while Me, Eddy and Oswald are going to national service ler~~~like i said in my Facebook, i'm gonna miss you all and definitely gonna miss my dear(hehe, guess is who lar)...

HAHA~so, right now i'm gonna say bye bye to you all and All the best to my friends~~~

Happy New Year 2010~~

2010-01-01T12:37:00.002+08:00

Just wanted to say happy new year 2010, and all the best and wishes to all my friends and readers~ thank you all !! 2010 will surely be a better year !!! and a new start !!!

Simple post~

2009-12-29T23:15:00.002+08:00

nth else, oh, i play cabal again ler, haha...and i want a HON account so badly, the graphic reli damn nice~haha~appreciate the times wif my frens lately, cause there wont be so many chances for us to hang out anymore~~love u guys~going to PLKN on 4th january...until then, i hope i still got time to update my blog~

Hey my readers, I'M BACK~~

2009-12-18T19:27:00.006+08:00

原本打算写关于宣道堂少团第31届进修会的。不过没有灵感，不知道怎么写,拖了很多天~

好吧，那我就从第一天写起吧。use english write is faster lar, paiseh~~LOL~

on the first day, well, i woke up quite early, ate a little something and then my dad fetch me to church, on the way to church, i called zi wei after she sms-ed me, we talked bout things and then say goodbye to each other, lol...then i arrived at the church, andrew arrived after me, and kee yung arrived before us~i took my name tag and a booklet, wait there a while and then other ppl start to arrive too...then we took our CHANGE t-shirt~

then~~~~~~~~~long story~~~~~~~

haha, i lazy to write so if u wanna know anything or see any pictures, there is pictures in ANDREW WONG TUNG TECK'S facebook and the story has been written in

http://januaryeunice92.blogspot.com/ <<<<>

thx for reading~

The Moment of Truth (All Of My Friends Should Read This)

2009-12-14T19:52:00.023+08:00

THIS IS MY 2009 REVIEW (DO READ ALL OF IT IF YOU HAD THE TIME, EVEN IF YOU DONT HAVE, I HOPE THAT YOU WOULD READ IT EVENTUALLY)

FYI (For your information), SPM is officially over for most of us...i gotta say, these exam days are really ... (i dont know how to describe, its a lot of emotion), today is the last subject, Chinese, its not really my favourite subject, but at the same time, i didnt hate it lar~finished the papers with some confidence but less confident than other subjects~maybe its the mood that affected me during today~i dont know how to say, its really quite complicated, partially happy and excited that SPM is over, and partially being sad because i wont be seeing some of my friends anymore(actually its mostly), moreover, the school and all the things that i've done there, those are really memorable and interesting memories i had there~

I am not trying to be over EMOTIONAL around here, but i'm not EXAGGERATE anything here, Secondary school life, Ended, Fullstop. many people around me said that its going to be a new start for all of us, and there are hell lot of things we are going to be going through...some TROUBLEMS we will face, some difficulties in our life, some tough decisions we would need to make, at that time, we would hope for others to help us, but when we're all separated, WE'RE ON OUR OWN~

Speaking of separating, that would be the hardest thing i have to go through right now, i mean, friends are like my 2nd family, they helped me gone through a lot of HARDSHIP, a lot of tough times, and definitely LOTS AND LOTS OF FUN TOGETHER~now that we are separating into different places, different paths, different future, i am quite sad but at the same time, hoping that all of us would have a really bright future and happily ever after~~haha~

Talk about myself, i learned to notice my weaknesses these years, and try to improve myself...i know throughout the whole 5 years of secondary school, i certainly have OFFENDED some of my friends, maybe its UNINTENTIONALLY and i did not mean to hurt or maybe HAD said something not very nice to you, but for the record, I'M SORRY~TO EVERYONE THAT I HAVE OFFENDED AND I HAD LEARNED FROM MY MISTAKES~ after all, i'm just a human and i'm not perfect, and definitely makes mistakes~

Below are some of the things that i wanted to say to all my friends that i've come to know and close to in these years...starts with form 1 to form 5 following orders...

Nicholas Kong: this is gonna be a long one, haha...ok, here we go...so, i've known you since Primary 6, til now, its 6 years, wow, not a short time, but long enough to say that u are my best friend~i still remember back in form 1, u were the one that always hang out with me, do something crazy together, haha...really missed those moments~all the years passed, and i definitely learned a lot from you, all those moments we laughed together, crazied together, and maybe, just MAYBE cried together...haha...i remember that we had a fight during form 3, and that was totally my fault, forgive me for my stupidness and foolish mind that time, that was really childish of me, and sorry again if i offended u after all these years, i admit that sometimes, i said something without going through my BRAIN...it was stupid~form 4 and form 5, u have been nice to me, and i thanks for all the fetching me around, and finding me out to have fun with you, appreciate it~i heard you say that you will be going overseas to Aussie to continue your studies, well, i really hope that everything is going to be smooth for you and all the best to your future~~

Nicholas Wong: hey man, maybe you dont have the chance to read this, but i'm going to say it anyway, you have been quite a friend to me in Form 1, 2 and 3...still gotta say thanks for helping Me and Nic with all the drawings that you helped us during Pendidikan Seni~haha~by the way, you are really a great guy and i'm sure your future will be very bright, considering your great results~~haha~~i'm actually quite sad that we have to separate to different class in form 4, we would have a lot more fun together if we're still together in a class~All the best to you too~~

Chiu Sin Ling: hey, you are also one of my best friends hor~haha, although we did not talk much these days, but back in Form 1, 2 and 3, we did have some fun together, and Maybe, just Maybe i might have some feelings for you THAT time, haha~i hope u remember all the fun times we had like skipping class with Nic and Chew Yieng during form 2, haha...that was fun~and in Form 3, u sat beside me, i felt quite lucky at the time, haha, but we did have a lot of memories back then, Fun and Sad, all of it~No matter what your choice would be, i will support you too~All the best~

Pauline Ting: maybe i havent know you that good, but i think we're friends, right ? haha...i still remember back then Me and Nic used to make fun of you, and if we did offended you back then, forgive our childishness, haha...cause we did not mean it for sure~quite suprised that you chose Art Stream last year, but still hoping that you had made the right choice, and all the best to you too~~

Soon Hie Ying and Soon Hie Jing: hmm...i'm not really sure that both of you would read this, but for the record, it was memorable being one your friend, had a great time SMS-ing you two...haha~

Lucia Hii: hey there, somehow, i hope that you would have a chance to read this in any kind of ways, haha, i remember you a lot, you know ? haha...and hey, forgive my childishness again for making fun of your name all these years, and in nearer years, your weight, haha~i did not mean to, but i really want to go on a diet, haha~~no offense~i certainly do remember how you helped me back then when i was in form 2, you were the Ketua Pengawas, and that thing happened, maybe you have forgotten, but i still remember it, thanks Lucia~~you were a really smart girl, so i think your future would be no problem and definitely smooth as silk~haha~all the best to you~~

Kelly Chew: wow, we're also been friends since primary school, haha...i forgot the details, but we're separated after primary school into different classes in secondary school, u went to 1A and i'm in 1B, haha...but eventually we talked in Form 3...and whichever Fate or Destiny that brought us together in Form 4, which we have been in the same class...after i've known you, i got to know more friends through you, and also did hang out a lot with you too starting Form 4 and also in Form 5...i dont know that whether its me or other reasons, we have been not as well now as we used to be last year...maybe its me, cause i had said something to offend you, i'm sorry for whatever that i have said~we've been close to each other in form 4, i remember that we were even sisters back then, hahaha~that was fun times we had together~well, no matter what kind of misunderstood that we had, i still am going to be your best friend, no matter what happens~

Alwyn Lim: hey dude, why did u go to brunei again ?? lol...we would be really close together if you havent moved to brunei, and i sometimes really do miss you as my friend...hahaha...do spend more times with us and come back more often...cause we wouldnt have so much time to play anymore~~~all the best to you and Jaymee hahaha~~

Ting Sing Hong: hey, no doubt that you are my close friend for 2 years, i still remember that we have been very good to each other since after PMR, haha~going out, shopping, eating...and all other activities, we've gone through a lot of things together, no doubt that you are my best friend,^.^ hope that our friendship last forever~i dont have to say a lot of things to you, because i think even though we did not talk about things, we would understand each other, cause we had quite a lot of things in common, and i know you too well, hahaha~~and you sure would be the one and only Ah Hong~~

Ting Sie Yew: dude, hahaha...i consider you as my best friend too, we had quite a lot in common too...all those Dota, games, hanging out, going out, eating, shopping, and a lot others~haha~in form 4, u sat beside me, and we have been close to each other ever since, i appreciate everytime u forgive me for my mistakes, and appreciate all the fetching these years, haha...i learned more about you these years, and thanks for all the support that you gave me all these years, thanks man~i also enjoyed playing dota with you as the host, hahaha~~you will always be our AH YEW !!!

Chua Kah Ee, William Wong, Ling Sie Ye, Kong Cheng Long, Lee Yong Hui, Chang Wui Shyon, Lau Xian Zhuang: BB Boys, haha...famous for their disciplines and some childishness maybe, hahaha~~i enjoyed being your friend, and thanks for the memories that you all gave me~and i'm still a BB Primer by the way, haha~

Ngu Sze Ying, Ting Ding, Shirley Hiing, Annie Hii, Vincent Sia, Robert Lau S.C, Wong Siong Jiun, Penny Loi, Ashley Yii, Joanne Ngu: in form 4, i joined BSMM with Ah Hong...it was second year for hong, and 1st year for me...also thru BSMM, i know these people, who helped me, teached me, and been my friends, truly appreciate that...and Sze Ying, you're also my primary school's close friend, all these year i'm grateful that we still have chance to talk to each other, anyway, all the best to all of you~

Wong Chew Yieng: hmm, we haven really been that close, right ?? haha...but we did laughed together and had fun together before, we were classmates for 5 years, that wasnt something that happened just like that, might as well say its Destiny, hahaha~well, i hope that you had a great time being my friend, and hope your future would be as bright as possible~~

Eddy Tiong: this guy knows a lot of things, haha...might as well be one of the smart person in our group...i'm grateful that i've known you as my friend too, as we are one of the Innocents~haha~maybe we havent been that close, but i always consider you as my close friend~all the best to you, dude~

Andrew Wong Tung Teck: haha, andrew, the always laughing and a holy person, we've been quite close for this 2 years, i'm happy that i have been your friend for 2 years, although i have heard a lot about you since form 3, hahaha~~enjoyed being your friend, andrewman~~

Jessica John, Yoyo Sia: should i thank god or wat ?? haha, u 2 were my ex primary school's friend, maybe we haven been that close too, but we're still friends, right ?? haha, all the best to you 2~

Lawrence Kiing, Ting Sing Hong (methodist one, LOL), Oswald Ting: methodist guys, hahaha...to tell the truth, i was closer to lawrence and hong compare to oswald, no offense...haha, lawrence and hong, u 2 sat beside in Physics and Chemistry tuition, since then, i find that we also had quite a lot of common topic and interests, haha, since then, i consider u 2 as one of my good friends, and its also fun to watch movies with you guys~~haha~

Ting Hua Shii, Goh Chee Hwang, Eeric Tie, Chiew Ung Fuh, Yii Teck Lek, Wong Chung Siang, Henry Cheng, Ling Jing Hou, Jeffrey, Color Lo, Wong Shiuan Ying, Steven Sii (Ah B), Paw (Boom Boom Paw), Ho Teck Wei: hey dudes~~~~hahaha, one of the lines that i made famous amongst these friends, 2009 is the year i was invited to most party of these guys, i had a lot of fun with you guys, and dont forget me, ok ?? i'm D3mOn, hahaha~~all the best to you all~~

and last but not least~~~

Ting Zi Wei: hi, i've known you for a quite long time, but i just knew you well since this year, at first, when WHH say i need to switch seat Ting Ding, i felt normal and okay, and a bit happy...but when i got to know you more, i find that we had a lot in common and we turned out to be really good friend...you taught me a lot of things that i dont know, advised me, shared with me your troublems and your feelings...i felt very lucky that i was arranged as your seatmate for the rest of the year, really really lucky~~haha, take this as a compliment, cause i think that you are cute, smart, fun to be with, and cute again~hahaha~i'll always remember the moments that we shared throughout the year and of course i will remember you as my good friend~but i'll consider you as my best friend, and i always can share my things to you~~haha, all the best to you in Singapore~~

Wooooo, i think that's about all the people that i've been really nice with in my secondary school life, all the funs we had, tears we shed, crazy we've shared, haha, i will remember all of it~~

THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING PART OF MY WONDERFUL SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE~~

AND THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES~~~

BTW, i did spend 2 hours writing this to share with all of you, i really hope that you guys and gals will read this...i would really appreciate it~~~

My Birthday is a Looooong day~

2009-12-11T23:53:00.003+08:00

haha, y do i say its a long day, well, i write this post right before the last few minutes of my birthday~~haha~

Gotta say thanks to Ah Hong, Ah Yew, Eddy, Eeric, and Ung Fuh for spending the morning and noon times of my birthday~had a lot of fun staying over at Fuh's house~~Night time spend some time at relatives house and ate dinner there, had quite some fun wif my cousins~then out wif hong yew and eddy~thx to u guys again~

and for other close friends who wished me happy birthdays (Following order): Allen Hii, Lawrence Kiing, Hie Ying, Jing Hou, Lucia Hii, Kelly Chew, Oswald Ting, Yoyo, Jaymee, Alwyn, Zi Wei, Color Lo, Jeffrey, Joanne, Henry, Nicholas Kong, Shu Wen, Mei Mei and facebook friends and a lot more~~

Last minutes thanks to: Hong, Yew, Eddy, Kah Ee, Madam Lisa, Alvin and otherss~~

THANK YOU ALL~~

Birthday Wishlist:

1. Get excellent results in SPM

2. Get new gadgets

3. "Secret"

4. "Secret"

~The End~

Farewell party at Fuh's house~~

2009-12-11T13:04:00.006+08:00

PHOTOS SAYS IT ALL~~i'll be writing when i am free~

Dinner Party with 5S3~~

2009-12-09T21:34:00.005+08:00

The Food~

I got small eyes~lol~

Me and Robert~

Str8 A o~haha~

This is clearer~and my teeth are so white~~wiuwit~

Zi Wei and Penny read out the comments we wrote~

Freedom baby~~~~

5S3 Night Out~~~

Group Photo~~

wan hit ah yew again~~haha~

Kelly, Me and Robert Zai~

Serious a bit~haha~

Let's Kiss~~~LOL~XDD

FYI, our class, 5S3 of SMK Tung Hua held a dinner party at 鼎立 Restaurant 2nite~

We had quite lot of fun chatting and hanging around there tonight, this might as well be the last time we held a party together and have fun...its a really good memories, couldnt write the details cause its a long story and i dont want to bore u~hahaha~

Photos pending to be received from sie huung~

Me and Zi Wei (what happened to my eyes ?)

Robert, Andrew, and Bernard ar~

WE love Peace~lol~

Watched Ninja Assassin and Twilight: New Moon today~

2009-12-09T16:47:00.002+08:00

RAIN as the Ninja Assassin~

Ninja Assassin is a quite bloody movie....lolz...there's blood spreading everywhere, body parts flying everywhere...but its quite an intense movie, we enjoyed it~

i think it deserves 6.5 out of 10 stars~

Twilight: New moon has different comments from everyone~

Andrew said: it's really boring, just like an art movie~

Ah Hong said: What does it mean ?? lolz....

Andrew's cousin said: It's too late for regret now~haha~

and i think this movie was more like a love kind of movie, its all about Bella who cant live without Edward...most ppl think that this movie is veli slow, and thats true, its reli quite slow =.=

5 out of 10 stars for me~

well, anyway, had a nice movie day wif andrew, hong and andrew's cousin...

SPM almost finish~~

2009-12-09T08:34:00.004+08:00

Taller than a 30cm ruler ?? =.=, and that's form 5 notes and papers onli oo~

SPM almost finish ler, gotta clean these things up~

My Wallpapers and Games~

2009-12-08T19:59:00.003+08:00

Latest~

Old~

Older~

Older than older~

Oldest

2009 Review~

2009-12-08T18:46:00.004+08:00

Movies that i had watched this year :

1.Star Trek (Worth Watching)

2.Ice Age 3: Dawn of the dinosaurs (Worth Watching)

3.Angels and Demons (Worth Watching)

4.Dragonball Evolution (Normal Stuff)

5.Terminator: Salvation (Worth Watching)

6.X-Men: Wolverine (Worth Watching)

7.Crank (Worth Watching)

8.Crank 2: High Voltage (Worth Watching)

9.Race to the Witch Mountain (Sucks)

10.17 Again (Worth Watching)

11.Jennifer's Body (Sucks)

12.Knowing (Worth Watching)

12.The Proposal (Normal Stuff)

13.The Hangover (Worth Watching)

14.Defiance (Worth Watching)

15.G-Force (Worth Watching)

16.Drag me to Hell (Sucks)

17.Aliens in the Attic (Normal Stuff)

18.Hannah Montana the Movie (Normal Stuff)

19.12 Rounds (Normal Stuff)

20.Red Cliff and Red Cliff 2 (Worth Watching)

21.Fast and the furious 4 (FAVOURITED)

22.Watchmen (Sucks)

23.Underworld 3: Rise of the Lycans (Worth Watching)

24.Street Fighter: Legend of Chun Li (Worth Watching)

25.Monsters VS Aliens (Sucks)

26.Final Destination 4 (bloody scene is freaking disgusting)

27.Saw 5 (bloody scene is freaking disgusting)

28.The Orphan (bloody scene is freaking disgusting)

29.Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (Worth Watching)

30.Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen (FAVOURITED)

31.GI JOE (FAVOURITED)

32.Tsunami (Worth Watching)

33.2012 (FAVOURITED)

To be watched in the holiday:

1.Ninja

2.Ninja Assasin

3.Twilight: New Moon

4.Storm Warriors II

TV Dramas that i have been watching all year long:

1.Supernatural

2.The Mentalist

3.Gossip Girls

4.Entourage (Finished in a month until season 6)

5.Hannah Montana

6.90210

7.White Collar

8.Prison Break (Ended)

9.Chuck

10.Las Vegas

11.One Tree Hill

12.Knight Rider (Ended)

13.Jericho (Ended)

14.Heroes (Stopped for a while already)

15.Smallville (Stopped for a while already)

Leona Lewis~One of my favourites~

2009-12-08T18:39:00.000+08:00

this song is reli nice, do spend some more time listen to her other songs, i liked her since her "Bleeding Love"~

Bernard is Back !!!!

2009-12-08T16:14:00.001+08:00

well well well, it has been at least month since i've updated my blog, not that i dun wan to update it, its just that i am too lazy and too busy with my SPM lately...but now, SPM is more like OVER to me, cause all the important and difficult subjects are all done and gone~

although during the period of the exam, i did quite relax and did not pressure myself on it, that is also one way to get myself not too nervous and panic about the exam~

now i am so glad that its going to be over~~so soon, so nice !!!!

i'll be posting the photos of recent activities as soon as possible !!

BYE SEJARAH~~

2009-11-19T17:11:00.000+08:00

I HAD TO WRITE THIS, THE MOST HARD PAPERS OF THE WEEK IS F***ING OVER~~~!!!!